Does she love me or is it all over?

[bosoxnation854]

So about 2 years ago I met a girl named britt we both hit it off great! She was 20 and I was 24 at that time. We were perfect for each other we got along so well. After seeing her for a few months she then told me her whole life story. She was into drugs, partyed, ran away from home at a you.g age, had a 2 yr old son but lived with her dad, she was a stripper, had drug addicticted friends, had a dwi..basically a past that would make any guy run away! But I didn't I saw past that and wasn't going to judge her cause of her past. She told me she was done with drugs, the party life, and stripping and was looking to settle down and become a better person. So a few months passed and our feelings for each other where special we where falling in love. I then did the mistake of texting a girl and she found out about it so she broke up with me. While we were broken up I found out she was sleeping with another guy like a day after we broke up. So I apologize to her for texting that girl and eventually we end up getting back together like two weeks later. Our trust was pretty much demolished at this point but we where still madly in love with each other.
So one night at a party we get into a big arguement because of her flirting with another guy and end up leaving the party. She tells me she is dropping me off at my place because she was going to an old bf house to do drugs. We then argued for a long time and she eventually left to that guys house and left me on the side of the road. I took her cellphone with me and saw in her messages that she had been talking to several guys. The next day she calls me and tells me she's stranded at a gas station because she ran out of gas and has no money. So stupid me goes and picks her up. We end up getting back together and a few weeks later she tells me she is pregnant and move in together. We were both happy and willing to raise this little boy. So from then on until my son was born she was the best woman any man would ask for. She was so good to me in every way. We where madly in love with each other. So right before my son was born I proposed to her and she said yes. Her family loved me very much and always told me I was the best thing that has ever happened to her. My son was born and we both were very happy about it. We both then seemed to spend less time with each other because of the baby. She then started to lose all of her baby tummy that she got from the pregnancy and seemed like that's all she cared about was looking good and her 21st bday that was coming up. So a couple months pass and I start realizing she had no interest in me anymore she would kiss me or anything. We would always argue and she would always have her younger sister over so I felt like I was just a roomate in that house. So about a week before her bday she left me and my son to go out drinking and never came home. We broke up and she picked up my son a few days later. We remained broken up for about 6 months but I am still in love with this girl. And she always tells me she is in love with me too. She has been with several guys in town including one of my co workers. I would still try to get our family back together even though I knew she was with other guys. She would disrespect me in many ways. She would tell me I'm just a disgusting Mexican to her and many other things. She would also tell me that she never loved me that it was all fake. I still to this day keep trying to get back with her. I stay at her apartment occasionally and keep thinking were going to get back together but once I start asking her to get back with me she ignores me and sleeps with other guys. Then she calls me again and tells me shes sorry and wants to fix our family and work things out. Then she changes her mind. It just feels like I'm getting used here I don't know what to do anymore. At this moment were "together" butat any moment she's going to change her mind again. Its very hard for me because I know there is love still there somewhere. Because when were together its amazing. We have great times with our son. But when the weekend comes along or the sister calls her she throws me out like trash. I need some advise people. She says she loves me with all her heart and that I'm her soulmate but why does she treat me like crap and disrespect me sp much? Should I keep working at it until she changes? Or should I move on?

[angelsnairwaves]

she disrespects you because you allow it. at this point, you have only yourself to blame. i can tell you that because i am just like you. i didnt hold my boyfriends past against him when we started dating. but i should have. i gave him a chance, and yet IM the one who got burned. over and over. its called naivety.
if you really love her, you have to be tough on her. for you- because you respect yourself- and for her- because you love her enough not to allow her to disrespect you or herself or anyone else for that matter. tough love. tell her you love her and want to be with her, and if she cleans up for good- no drugs, no cheating- you will give her one last chance. but until then, you are going to move on and you will miss her but will be just fine without her. she might not come around right away but it will at least change the way she looks at you if you stand up for yourself. then work on yourself, bettering yourself and respecting yourself and not allowing anyone to ever treat you that way again. dont forgive so easily or generously and she wont betray your trust as easily.

[bcgirl]

She is still young and she is not learning from her mistakes. She has been into drugs, partying, sleeping with guys in the past and she's already had one baby with someone. She met you and she still hasn't changed her ways. She creates drama and she enjoys the drama she creates. Although she makes foolish mistakes, ends up sleeping with guys and then regrets it and cries....she just can't help herself. She needs major counselling to find out the root of why she surrounds herself with drama and she can't just live her life simple and happy to have a boyfriend who cares and a family and her children. Girls like her will never be completely happy and will end up hurting any man that she ends up being with unless she figures out why her subconscious is not allowing her to just be normal...perhaps it's a childhood trauma, rape victim, abused child etc. etc.
This to me sounds like the typical love/hate roller coaster relationship. When it's good, it's amazing. When it's bad, it's total hell. There is no in betweens. I can relate, i've been in that sort of relationship. This type of relationship will NEVER be normal for the long run. Best you can do is break up with her. Share custody of your son. It's going to be VERY tough to leave, but you must be strong....she'll beg you with every bone in her body for you not to leave....then she'll get angry and say horrible things like how she will sleep with a guy tonight.....then she will tell you that she loves you....then she will actually sleep with a guy....then she will tell you how sorry she is and she loves you and it will never happen again......rinse, dry, repeat.