Hey! 6 months ago, my boyfriend dumped me after 1 year together. I've been in much longer relationships before him, but there was something special about this one. I really love him, and I miss him every day. He broke up with me because he thought I was too flirty around other boys. I didn't see it then, but now I do.
Lately he's been reaching out -trying to get together, and hang out. We've hung out a couple of times, but I really want to forget him. Mainly because he's 5 years younger than me, and my parents don't really approve of him. On the other side - all I want is to be with him. I've told him that I want to try to be friends, but it's just not working out for me. My feelings for him are too strong, and every situation become really awkward.
He keeps on calling me. Mainly when he's drunk, but still...! He tells me he misses me, but the conversation always ends before it's begun.
Today we hung out yet again, and things developed. Since we've had sex the last two times we've hung out, I was determined to say no this time, to find out if it was ME or just my body he was after. He tried to kiss me more times than I can count, and wanted to hold me all the time. I didn't give in. I told him if this friendshipthing's going to work, he had to lower his guns, and start to act more friendly, and not like he's still my boyfriend. I don't want him to know that I miss him, because I'm so afraid of getting my heart broken yet again. I need a sign, before I can really start to open up again. But it's so hard to read him.
Before I left his house, he grabbed my hand and asked me if I ever thought that we would be more than friends again. And I got so overwhelmed that I said no, and left. I don't know how to read him. I would appreciate if someone could help me out a bit, if possible.
And also, he started to talk about his ex (the one he dated for a couple of months after we broke up). And I think I showed that I didn't like that he talked about her. Because he began to tell me about how fat she was, and how needy she was (and I know for a fact, that she's a really nice girl, and not fat at all). So...
Maybe I'm just overanalyzing everything, but....I still have hope that he might still have feelings for me. So...what do you say, guys? Do I have a shot?