An older married woman

[MeLewis]

Hello all, some of you have helped me in some past issues I was having with my emotions. For those of you who helped me, I told D how I felt and we have not spoken since. I am not mad at any of you, rather I am mad at myself for waiting so long to tell her. These past few months after telling her has given me some time to look at myself, and search for what I really want. For that, I truly thank each and every one of you that has helped me.

Back to the topic at hand.
I recently have been interested in this one woman in particular. I have worked with her for about 3 years, and on a daily basis she tells me that I am her favorite person that works in the store. When we have a break together, she asks questions about me, like my favorite food and color and whatnot. She all the time tells me that we have so much in common. Whenever she sees anything in correspondence to the Irish, she talks in an Irish accent, and it has become quite a funny inside joke between us. We are both Irish, and she loves the fact that we have so much in common. She is a phenomenal person, and one of my best friends. The thing is... She is 8 years older than me, and she is married. She is intelligent, funny, and beautiful. I took some time off of work to go to college, and when I would go to the store to visit her she would ask me to come back to work. The times when I did go into the store she would run across the sales floor and give me a big bear hug. All of the other co-workers know me as her "Number 1", and they try one up me any chance they get. When I left to go to college, she bought be a cake (instead of playing a huge prank on me, which she does to everyone else), and when I went to get my jacket out of my car, I saw her crying in her car. After talking with her at Thanksgiving, I went back to work during my Christmas break. I am currently still working there, and I hate it there. I hate the pay, the workload, and most of the people. I still work there because of her, and she makes it enjoyable to work there with all the pranks I help her pull on our fellow co-workers. I recently got a job offer from our competitor, and when I told her this, she begged me not to go. I told her I have to go because I need more hours and pay to help pay for college.

Her husband is a bigger guy, honestly it wouldn't hurt him to lose a couple buckets of weight. I know she is the type of person to find the inner beauty of others, and every time I see her husband I think to myself that he is the luckiest man alive.
Knowing that she is such an amazing woman, I would never do anything to jeopardize her happiness, or her husbands happiness. Honestly I don't know why I am typing all of this for you guys, because I know I shouldn't be feeling the way I am.

Thank you all for reading, have fun picking it apart and telling me how wrong it is to have these feelings for her.

[vashti]

I don't think it is wrong to have these feelings, but it is wrong to act on them, and it is perhaps a little silly to put yourself in a position to be hurt by someone who belongs to someone else.

[HeartIsAching]

Vashti's got it exactly right.

Feelings aren't wrong in and of themselves. The acts you indulge in because of them can be. If she's really interested in you, she'll let you know. If she does, personally I'd recommend that you tell her that you will consider it after she's single and not before.

[IndiReloaded]

One of my favourite quotes for your digestion:

We aren't responsible for our thoughts, only our acts of will.

[MeLewis]

That is exactly what I needed to hear. As always, you are all very intelligent and there is always a lot of truth in what you say. I would never do anything to hurt her relationship