We broke up a few months ago, things have been up and down....we have had periods of not speaking, we have slept together again, she has a new partner & cheated on her partner with me....we've spent more time together recently...its been so lovely.
But, she keeps putting me in a place where i feel happy and wanting her so bad, and then just kicks me right where it hurts & totally breaks me again. She did it last on friday - we had an argument, i text her in anger & she wasnt replying, so it got me more angry!!! On saturday night, my best friend told her to stop hurting me - she showed him her phone so my best friend
Could read everythin we say to eachother. I was fuming.
Shes made me feel like im crazy. I dont know what to do. I love her so much, she makes me feel amazing, but then so bad at th same time. Shes 4 years younger than me & in her 2nd year of uni. I know shes in a young, naiive wanting to go out stage, but we lnow we want eachother, just not right now. But shes made me feel so bad this weekend, i jus dont knkw what to so anymore.
Why cant i accept it?! She seems to find it easy. Nearly 3 years of an amazing, loving relationship all
In pieces. She said she could be with me, but she knows it would be forever & that scares her. Thats fair enough, but why persue a relationship with someone else, and keep me dangling as a "friend"?! Im so confused & actually think ive gone crazy. Helllllppp