Smackie: thanks! I know it would help things, wearing makeup and all. I would probably even feel pretty, for once! : P I just have this sense of giving in to society if I do, because I really don't believe women should be expected to wear makeup in order to be viewed as attractive. I'm sure you know what I mean. It's just ... kind of ... I don't know ... unfair? I say that knowing that it's not really the right word, but I don't know how else to say it. I guess it's just the feminist in me! But at the same time I realize that women have been wearing makeup for thousands of years. Just think of Cleopatra! So really, it's not a new idea.
Anyway, I think I have issues with feeling attractive, anyway ... on the rare occasions I do wear makeup, I feel weird in it, and then if guys notice me more than usual, I get irritated because it seems like they're only interested because I am wearing makeup, and not because of who I am.
Yeah, doesn't make much sense, I know. I think my best bet is to just present myself as nicely as possible without the makeup. I'm not unattractive, I know that much! I've got long eyelashes and big eyes : P Another problem I have with makeup is the vast amounts of harmful chemicals contained therein. It's really scary if you read up on it all, and not good for the environment either (maybe I'm a bit of a hippie). So, if I could find a brand of makeup that contains no harmful substances, I think I'd be more likely to wear it, too.
One thing I will never do is wear heels all day. I despise them. : P They really hurt my legs and feet, my whole body actually. But luckily for me I'm already 5'9" so no one is going to notice if I never wear them!
I don't know how this reply transformed into a discussion about my beauty habits ... lol. Sorry!! But I guess it's all connected in a way, to who you are and how you present yourself ... and how others will perceive you in turn. I had very long hair last year; it was one of the first things that drew my ex to me, apparently. When he broke up with me I wanted to chop it all off, like as revenge or something, like I was saying "ha! Now I'm free and I can do whatever I want with my hair!"
I cut it, but not that short, luckily, because I had a sneaking suspicion that I had grown really fond of it myself ... and I was right, because I miss it now! I guess the lesson there is that "revenge" usually backfires, especially if you do it for the wrong reasons. I heard a quote not too long ago: "the best revenge is living well." I need to remember that!
Thanks for your reply also, kev! I'm glad I could reach someone with this story of mine ... it was mostly for myself, as I just wanted to get it out of me for my own sake, but to know that it's touched another emotionally is great and tells me that I'm not insane.
Getting dumped is like ... the worst. It's actually the worst thing. : P I know this. (Well, from my limited life experiences, it's the worst!) I'm sorry for all that have to go through it.