Just the thought of this man makes me weak in the knees...
I met him one summer while camping, a friend of mine her family was friends with their family... the moment I met him we locked eyes and my heart fluttered. Turned out he felt the same.. we were young in our early-midteens and spent most of the two weeks together with all of our friends. We gazed up at the stars at night and discussed our dreams and life... we only ever kissed or held hands... but the first time we held hands it was magic... and kissed, whew I can't even tell you. We have very similar values and I have never been as attracted to anyone as I am him. Unfortunately he lived several hours away from the town I lived in so we tried to date but at that age its very difficult not having a car and public transport was not really an option. We sent letters and parcels to each other.. but we ended up breaking up because the distance just didnt work out. Years went by and we would meet up whenever he was in town the feelings between us were undeniable. Despite not being in a relationship one holiday he drove all the way to my house without me knowing to give my mom a present to put under the tree... on Christmas day it was the last present to open as it was hiding.... I opened it at it was a handwritten poem confessing his love for me (We had known each other for 5 years at this point, there was a beautiful necklace and he asked me to his prom...) I immediately called him and said yes of course. Unfortunately months later I was young and stupid and made a teenager mistake and my mom punished me in the worst way possible, I was no longer allowed to go to his prom... I think I broke his heart...
More time went buy and I went to the other side of the country to go to university and he went to one close to the town I grew up in.. we met up in college... still the feelings were there but for some dumb reason I hooked up with one of his FRIENDS?! Idiot I know on my part...
Fast forward to now, 4 years since graduating from university. We have both dated many people, traveled the world and have ended up in another province from where we both grew up... turns out he's living in the same city as my sister.... While visiting her he messaged me on facebook and we decided to meet up... we spent almost every day together when I was in the city, he is drop dead gorgeous and the feelings are still there... but yet we didn't even kiss. (We saw each other for almost a week straight staying up until 2am non stop talking)....
I live 4 hours away from him and I haven't seen him since we saw each other every day for a week in December, we chat frequently and he has hinted that we should get together (there's been some steamy text messages), but nothing has happened... He was even in my city a month ago and didn't call me to meet up.... which I don't understand.
He wants me to come up for a weekend. I've suggested that I am interested but yet he hasn't made it clear what he wants...
If I go visit him like he suggested does he expect sex? Or is he looking for a relationship? Even though we are not dating and have gone years without talking if I was to sleep with him would that make me look easy?
I must admit I want to see how he is in bed, cause to me the feeling between us has always been magic and I think he would be the best I ever had (at least in my mind I've imagined it)... haha...