I have already posted about this in the Broken Hearts and Love Advice Forum so please go there for the complete story. I really need some advice.
So I have known my best friend for almost 5 years now. She is really great and we talk all the time through FB or texting. About half a year ago, I realized that I'm in love with her (first girl I ever felt this way about) and that she had everything I was looking for. So I told her on my birthday and she said she wasn't looking for a relationship so I left it.
Fortunately, things did not get awkward but instead we got really close to each other. We often hung out alone and called each other and I could compliment her without feeling awkward and it almost felt like a relationship. One day she admitted that she had feelings too but she was trying to ignore them for some reason. I took this as a good thing and just gave her some time to think about her feelings.
About 2 weeks ago, I told her that I was worried that this was going nowhere especially after 6 months. She dropped a bomb on me by saying that she is sure she doesnt have feelings for me and that she never will.
The only reason I kept loving her those months was because I though I could convince her that those feelings are real but now we cant even talk as friends. She realizes that I treated her and loved her more than any of her past boyfriends. Even all of our friends thought we would end up together.
I just feel really frustrated that after everything that I said or did, it still wasn't enough to change her mind where as the jerks she previously dated basically had to do nothing and just hurt her when they were dating. During those times, I was there for her more than her boyfriend ever was and I talked to her more than he did. At one point he was just ignoring her for a long time and she came to me for comfort.
She kept giving me mixed signals the whole time because I knew she really like the fact that I was there for her the whole time doing all of that.
I know you cant force someone to like you so I stopped doing all of those romantic and nice things I did to try to win her over. Was she leading me on the whole time? Was I wrong to hold on for so long and should I let go of the little hope that I have thinking I might still have a chance? She said I was just hurting myself by holding on and that she isn't worth all the pain and trouble but I just can't stand the fact knowing she is just going to date some other guy in the future.