Old and new love, what to do? HELP

[lindaatjePQ]

I dont know where to start, but I really need some advice. I dont know if it is possible but can you be in love with 2 person at the same time?

I have a 2 years relationship with my boyfriend and what so special about is that he is my first boyfriend and he lived at the other half of the world (long distance relationship). Everything is going fine, we miss each other much and everyday we call each other up or skype.

However there is another boy whom i keep thinking about.. I met him before I knew my boyfriend 4 years ago. He is very charming, handsome, funny.. I just love everything about him, even his bad habits.. It is so stupid but we met each other by a online game xd (I was back then 15 years old haha and he 16) I never, and never had the intention to fall in love with him, I add him on msn, and just forgot about him. Then one day when he was on vacation in VN, we got to talk on msn, I was so bored.. We talked, shared our dreams and sad things. we had also so much in common, its ridiculous almost. He made me laugh, happy, butterflies in my tummy. We talked from 18.00 to 01.00 in the morning and where he was 23.00 to 06.00 or something. He was so sweet, we were so innocence. However, suddenly he changed, I thought he was playing me because I never got to see his real face you know (only photo). He stopped caring, and was very grumpy when he was back in the NL. Also he never asked me on a date, I expect that if he came back from on vacation... On the other hand I was also childish and very shy what can you do when you are 15 years. So I thought he was playing me and then cut the connection. He also never wrote me a mail.. So maby he wasnt that interested. However..... we met each other again on FB.. hurray FB connects people xD We talked, and finally I expressed my feelings 2,5 years later. I had still feelings for him, even when I first met my boyfriend I told him about the other guy. We talked on FB, I told him my feelings.. But even though I had feelings and I told him about, I couldnt go further because of my bf. Then again I said im sorry I cant go further its just unfair for my bf. Then the third time... It was my birthday when he suddenly suprised me by a email and wrote happy birthday. We talked again, but this time I had to see him once, and he me too... I know its wrong, but I went on a date, just to see him what he was like.. I dont want to write too long, but our date was perfect, fantastic.. he was exactly how I imagined him... so prince charming, handsome and manly.. And he found me really pretty&sweet xd

BUT AGAIN I HAD TO SAY GOODBYE, because i caannnnnnnnnnt lose my bf. Not only because I love him, but also because of the family rearange marriage you know. Though I love my bf, i keep thinking about the other guy. Can someone give me advise?? Im going crazy.

ps. If I compare those 2
my boyfriend is the marriage material (perfect husband and bf) Thats why i choose for the save&secure option
and my old love is a boyfriend material

[smackie9]

You are young only once, you have plenty of time to think about getting married years from now so what is your damn hurry? Having someone physically available to you is the best option, over a LDR. Trust me you will want to have different experiences before you are tied down with one man for the rest of your life.... I say go for it.