I am in love with my one of my best friends. At least I think I am in love with her. When I first met her, I really didn't like her. She was always so
annoying. But then we got to know each other better and she sort of grew on me. Not very long after I started to get to know her, I started to think
about her romantically. Soon after, we were always together. And my feelings have done nothing but grown since then. It took me about a year to work up the courage to tell her about the feelings I had for her. When I finally did, she told me that we had too good of a friendship, that she didn't want to ruin it, that I was like a good friend to her and that she couldn't feel that way for me. and she had a crush on some one else and they both are together but not in serious relation that's what she told me. i have asked her lot of times indirectly that if she like any one else but always said No.... But I just can't shake this feeling. Several times the pain I feel has grown so strong that I needed to take a 'vacation' from her, which just gave my mind time to fantasize about how great she is and how someday she has to give me a shot. But when I am away from her for so long, I miss her to the point where the only thing I want to do is be with her. No matter how much it hurts to know she doesn't feel the same way.I have actually cried about this almost a hundred times. The only advice I have gotten so far is to 'get over it', and if I could, I would. But I can't. I think that the reason I can't get over this is because I can't let go of the hopes that some day, she may change her mind. And I truly believe that if she did feel the same, I would marry her in a heartbeat. And there I go again with the 'ifs'.I'm sure that you get alot of mail, and what's going on in my world doesn't affect you, i am totally confused what to do ahead should i talk to that guy about us may be he understand or what should i do but please, help me.
Thank you