I have been dating my boyfriend now for a little over two years, as expected the first year was blissfully mushy. We did everything together and even moved into a home together after only a couple months.
We have usually been pretty open with communication and our problems. Although, I am having some serious trust issues with him. I found him texting another woman about a year ago, asking her for photos and telling her things that were not exactly PG. I have done my best and we have tried to work through it. I just can't find myself able to trust him like I did before.
Things had been almost back to normal, but I kept finding new phone numbers calling him. He will answer the phone, turn down the volume, and leave the room to chat. He keeps changing the women in his stories to men or just hiding them all together.
These past few months we have been fighting non-stop. Almost every night, (usually about trust issues) but he seems to be lashing out on me very badly. He has been calling me names, and just yelling at me until I am sobbing. He has even gone to the point of telling me that I am "ruined now." I am not sure any other way to take that, but as an insult. Then he simply wants to forget everything happened.
I understand that I am mostly to blame for not fully trusting him again. I just don't understand how to fix this. He is my best friend and my companion, and I would never do anything to hurt him intentionally. But I can not seem to trust him, or make him happy anymore. I feel like his lashing out is because he is beginning to resent me.
Does anyone have advice for this? I am willing to try anything. Thank you very much.