Never saw it coming.

[Twiz]

I had been with my boyfriend for pretty much 2 years. This week would have marked 2 years. He out of nowhere dumped me recently. It makes no sense why out of nowhere he'd do this. The sickest thing is that he made me feel like it wouldn't have happened. If I look back it was all a little weird since last monday. We had an awesome weekend like a week ago. I cut his hair we had a really good time. I saw him last friday and saturday. Well that sunday I asked if monday if hed wanna see me. he said he would. last minute that night he told me about some college thing he forgot about at DCCC and that he couldn't hang out, that he was sorry and that later than night hed see me after the meeting. Which I felt kinda funny like it wouldn't work out that night but I was still looking forward to it. Monday comes and we are talking as if everything's ok. he told me after his meeting hed pick me up and wed see each other. He gets back from school and talks to me til 5-7 when he had that meeting. He texted me when it was over and said "ill see you soon " well it's 8 that night, then 8:30 and he tells me he's helping his grandma with her car? Yeah, sounded like bullshit. Then 8:40 he tells me I can come over. So I say "are you gonna pick me up?" and he said "no, I don't have the car" so I asked my mom for a ride I was basically at his house and I was like "well I thought you were gonna pick me up like you said. and it's almost 9 now I thought we'd at least be together an hour ago" and he was rude and was all "well, idk what to tell you. I told you i didn't have the car. and now my mom doesn't really want anyone over now" he blamed his mother... and I said "ok, well I'm like outside of your house though, you just said I could come over and I'm like here so just come outside" and he was all "what do you mean?! I told you you couldn't come over!" and I said "nick, just come outside" he kept telling me to hold on. Eventually after waiting like an idiot I got back in the car but crying because he didn't even want to come outside even just to say hi, which at that point was all I wanted. But whatever, like I saw it as a misunderstanding. I know he was busy going over college stuff so I just saw it as a misunderstanding.

Tuesday he talks to me like everything's fine. He comes to my house with chocolates cause he said he had a gift for me for those past couple days so he came over with chocolates to make up for it. we relaxed, he ate, we talked, everything seemed ok, we did everything we normally would when we'd hang out.

Well wednesday happens and I see him. We talk more about college and I had a weird feeling, for some reason I got kinda emotional and said "I know things won't always be the same. like I know you'll be in college too and we'll have different schedules. But I still want us to be together." and he wasn't reassuring at all and was randomly like "well, I'll be in college now, and I'm gonna meet new people. And I'm gonna wanna hang out with them more too. so don't be bummed out if I don't reply to you as much cause I know that bums you out. Oh, and I'm going to get a job too. and I can't text at work cause they have cameras. I'd get fired." and I was like "nick, that's so random, it had nothing to do with what I just said" and he said "I know, I just wanted to say that cause tomorrow I'm hanging out with my friends" and I was like "uhmm ok?" like he wasn't reassuring but I got over it.


Well thursday comes he texts me in the morning as if it's all ok, he gets done school and talks to me still like everything's fine. til he meets up with his friends his texts were delayed and not sending really but he was in a basement and although I was kinda bummed out and just wanted to talk, he was busy and I was understanding.


Friday comes and he talks to me still like everything's fine. I see him after my classes and it still seemed alright. Like I noticed he hadn't been as flirty with me lately, but apparently still enough for him to still want to have sex with me all that week... ok well anyway... so it still seemed alright at that point, we were hanging out and playing games, then that night he asked if I wanted to go to the mall so we did. before we go to the mall his dad asked him if he wanted to go to NYC with him on saturday to see his family. He agreed. I didn't know he was going to NY I thought we were going to hang out, I was a little bummed but I flat out told him that I wanted him to do what he wanted and that I had thought we were gonna hang out but if he wanted to see his family then I'd find something else to do and that I wanted him to have a good time. and he was all defensive and like "well it's only one day. and I haven't seen them in years" and I brought up how so many times I ducked out of things just to be with him instead and he was all "well thats sweet" but in the mall I stopped him and wanted to talk more because I really felt like he wasn't understanding me. I told him again how I was a little bummed cause I didn't know he was gonna go but that I still just wanted him to do what he wanted and to have a good time. well again he was like "well it's good to switch things up. You know, some days we don't always have to be together" and I was so confused and said "well what do you mean? like I like what we have? if it'd be a usual day we'd see each other then why wouldn't you want to be with me?" and he kept saying how it's good to switch things up. But like I got over that all and saw something I liked, I looked at him jokingly like that I wanted the item, he asked if he wanted me to have him pay for it and I said "no" and I payed for it myself. Then I guess after he thought I looked bothered, so I talked to him more about in the store. I explained he'd never have to buy me anything, how some guys insist on that and how it's nice but that he'd never have to do that. Well he insisted I take 20 bucks from him and I said "no, nick, it's weird. I can't do that. stop, like I already payed for it, it's fine really" and he made me take the money anyway. It was awkward.


Then outside of the mall we ran into people he knew. I didn't know any of them. the one kid goes up to nick and says "hi" turns to me and says "and who's this tramp?" well I got mad and turned to nick and said "aren't you going to say something?! you're my boyfriend?" and he half ass stuck up for me, i felt. Nick kept saying that's just how the kid joked. the kid apologized a bunch but whatever I was over it.


Saturday comes and he texts me. his replies were super delayed by like 30 mins, but I figured it was cause he was busy getting ready or maybe he was in NY and just busy. at one point saturday he didn't reply for like an hour. it seemed like he turned off his phone and then got my messages eventually. he replied all sweet saying he didn't want me to be bothered about not seeing him, which I kept explaining it was fine... and I asked "hey what happened? you didnt reply?" and he said "oh you didnt reply to me. and then I fell asleep. sorry" I said "yes I did reply. you shouldve gotten something in a few minutes and if you didnt im surprised you didnt send me something letting me know before you went to sleep. you went to sleep and didnt even tell me. and he was just all "lol. sorry" and whatever I got over that too. and he kept replying late. at one point it was like 5pm that day and he was like "sorry. my dads making me drive now" a half hour later he replies saying he was sorry and that he was done driving and I said "if you were gonna drive why didn't you let me know? you usually do or say something cute?" and he kept saying he was busy. all day h was being nice to me though, but he kept saying he was busy and would reply 30 mins later. but I was of coursed a little bummed, but didn't directly say i was sad or anything I was understanding cause I figured he was busy. But later that night I said I just wanted to have a conversation and it was really unlike him even if he'd be out to send such short replies. and he just kept saying he was busy but would say things back to me like "baby " and "I love you!" and "youre so sweet" and "my cutie baby cupcake" like all the shit wed normally say...

well that night I was trying to be cute by saying "I know you're having a good time with your family but it wouldve been nice if we were together too . I kinda miss you, but don't think it's weird" and he was like "whats weird?" and I said "nothing, I was trying to be cute" and I said everything I previously did like how I missed him and how I didn't want him to think it was weird. and he was like "Jackie I'm with my family. it's only a day" and I was like "omg, Iknew youd say that I just was trying to b cute" and he was like "i didn't know" well I got passed that too, and like we continued talking and he was still being nice and sweet when he was going to bed. I asked him that night if he could text me when he'd wake up and that I hoped wed flirt more that next day and talk more and he said he would.

well the next day comes, sunday... and he doesn't text me in the morning but I figured it was cause he was busy so I didn't bother texting him either. 11:30am his dad texts me from nicks phone saying how nicks driving and that he can't talk. Which I was understanding of i replied by saying id talk to him when he was home then. so 15-20 mins later his dad talks to me again saying how nick would be home at noon. nick gets home, he texts me like everythings alright, he was being nice. he even said hed flirt more with me cause I brought up how he hasn't much it seemed lately and he was all "i understand baby I'll do my part" and he was all "well see each other today " all nice and shit and I was like joking saying "aww you remembered " and he oddly and awkwardly said "of course I wanted to just I was with my family" which was odd of him to say, like I kept telling him I understood. but anyway, I was looking forward to it.

around 1 sunday he was like "it's a nice day wanna meet up?" I said "give me like some time to finish getting ready." and he said "ok baby take your time " so I tell him im ready and he happily tells me he'll come and pick me up. so he's calling me cute and shit all before this. then he honks, then texts me that hes here with a smiley face in the text.

I get in the car... he says "hey baby" he kisses me, asked me "did you miss me?" I said "well, yeah" like I said yeah cause what else was I supposed to say? well then he had a weird look on his face, then he started driving but pulled around my corner and parked and I knew something was up. at first I didnt know what I thought "omg did something happen in NY? is he going to tell me I seem sensitive lately ot something?" like then I said "nick, whats going on" and he was all "I'm not ready to be in a relationship right now" and I started crying and said "what do you mean?! it's been 2 years!" and he said "I just want to be alone. I don't want to be with you. I can't be with anyone right now. I'm just not mature enough. I'm not ready for this" and I said "nick, what the **** are you talking about? there was no preassure I didn't plan on getting married anytime soon or moving in or anything" and he just kept saying sorry and how he just wanted to be alone.


and I said "well it sounds like bullshit. it's been 2 years and youre saying this. this is somethig someone decides in 2 months, not TWO YEARS" and i was like "what is it? do you think I'm too clingy? if you want more space I'll give you more space? do you want to see other girls? like what is it? what did I do?!" and he said the cliche of "it's not you. its me" and I said "omg, well did you talk to anyone about this?" and he was all "no, it's something I decided on my own. I'm sorry. I still love you. youre like the closest thing I have to a friend. I love you so much. I still want to be in your life." and I said "no, youre not sorry. and if you still loved me you wouldn't be doing this to me" and then I said "well how long have you been thinking like this?" and he said a week. and I said "well then why were you so nice to me and acted like everything was ok? why did you call me sweet things, kiss me, and ask if I missed you if you were going to just break up with me?" and he said "YOU kissed me. and I just wanted to make you happy" I said "NO that makes it worse" and I seriously was about to leave the car and he got kind of mad and was like "NO. I am NOT letting you leave here worse than you are" and I said "it's kind of hard and too late for that. I am NOT going to be happy now since you broke my heart." he kept saying sorry and that he didn't want me to cry. well what the **** else was supposed to happen? and then I was like "I thought we were going to have a nice day. I thought it would make up for everything that had happened. I was looking forward to so much. this week was going to be 2 years together. I even bought a prom dress already!" and I was just so upset. I sat there crying for like an hour and a half and my dad noticed nicks car parked and called me. I answered the phone and nick was just like "oh no" and then my dad came up to the car and asked me what was wrong and I cried how "nick doesn't want to be with me anymore" and my dad took me out of nicks car and turned to nick and said "you know, she really did love you nick" and nick awkwardly pulled off and I assume went home. I havent heard from him since. Idk what he told his parents. His parents liked me so I don't know if they'd try to contact me. I wondered if he'd regret it and contact me at some point, but he doesn't seem to be regretting it as far as I've seen. I've felt horrible though.

[Twiz]

No one would've figure it wouldve happened. He made it seem like everything was fine, I mean things he was saying at some points about seeing friends and all was random, but I was never telling him he couldn't. I don't think he talked to his mom about it first before he did that.

Friday his parents were talking to me about how they had a job lined up cause their friends are graphic designers, they wanted to get me an internship. His mom was even talking to me a week or so before that about prom and what color flowers I wanted with my dress. His father asked me before I even cut his hair to make sure I made his hair nice for prom/graduation.

And just earlier that week his mom was also talking to me about going to the beach again like last summer for the week. And last Thursday his mom texted me apologizing saying she was sorry for me having to wait outside and she had no idea I was out there that Monday. So I had worked it out with his mom, something deep down felt a little odd so I think I emotionally got more sensitive, but how he was still being nice and sweet to me and all otherwise I thought it was nothing we couldn't have worked on.

I think he wanted space but didn't know how to go about saying it, so he just got sick of everything perhaps and just decided to impulsively break up with me. But we had hung out the same amount, talked the same amount since for as long as I could remember. I never held him back from anything and never had a problem if he'd go out with his friends, I'd wanna talk but would never stop him. Hell, some days I'd ask if he'd want to see me and he'd flat out say he'd wanna be alone, and despite how I'd feel I'd let him have his space.

In November he kept calling me insecure and stuff cause I get jealous sometimes, but I kept finding pornographic stuff he'd look at and it made me feel terrible and he kept calling me insecure and telling me to deal with it and how it's a guy thing. I got sick of it and wanted to meet up with him one night in November to discuss it and he got all emotional and cried and was all "you want to break up with me?" and I thought about it and felt bad and said "ok, you know, maybe it's something we can work out then. I just want you to respect my feelings more" and he agreed, even though there was a couple times after that like one girl after HE got suspended for punching a kid in the face this year was talking to him on facebook I got kinda jealous and he was a dick about it and called me insecure then too. Like any normal/nice bf would most likely be all "aww, no baby, don't worry. I love you, it's just a friend" he'd always get defensive with things or if I'd feel bad he would half ass be reassuring or not reassure me at all. Maybe he did think I was too clingy, but I just loved him. I was never up his ass all the time, and if he wanted space I would've respected it, but instead he didn't want to work it out which made me feel so sad/pissed because in November when I was about to end it with him, he gets all sad and I try to work it out, meanwhile he wants to end it and I have no say, no second chance... it's bullshit. I didn't deserve that at all. I was thinking Friday I'd leave the box on his porch when I'd be done my finals. I'd go earlier in the day when he'd be at school.

I would hope he does feel like he made a HUGE mistake. I don't know if he told his parents, or if he would lie and say I dumped him, but after they had this job opportunity for me and knew I was all excited for prom and knew how much I loved him I wonder if they'd even believe him. I'd see if he tries to even talk to me again, or if his mother would try to. But if not, which could also happen, either way I have to move on.

I do want a guy to respect me, to never get sick of being with me, to make me feel better if I'm down not make me feel worse, to be mature about things, if I look back I see that he never was many of those. He was sweet usually, but was ultimately immature and sometimes a flat out douche. He had the balls to tell me when I asked "why after 2 years? what were these past 2 years then?" to say to me "well, I thought I always mightve been like that" as in, he might have always thought he wasn't ready for a relationship. like WOW then why let it go on for 2 years? and also, as I was upset that day, I said "omg, I thought we were going to have a nice day to make up for everything that happened. Now I don't know what to do" he said "we can still hang out" 0_o and then I was like "idk who to talk to" and he was like "you can still talk to me" it was awkward. I think he saw in his head that I'd somehow be ok with it and that when I reacted by crying, obviously, he got mad. Everyone is asking if he has some sort of mental issues. Either way I really do hope he regrets it. My parents told me not to contact him first or not to talk to his mom either. It's sort of hard though, because I want closure. He changed his facebook status to single today, I had changed mine to single yesterday before he could do it first. Some people liked it, some girl commented "me too! lol" and he said something like "alright! WOOO!"... like obviously he doesn't seem to be bothered by what he's done, he seems proud I'd assume. It hurts really bad though. I keep trying to stay strong. Other guys are already asking me to hang out, everyone's telling me I'll find someone better. Advice is appreciated on what to do from here...

[searock]

Maybe if you split your wall of text into paragraphs, someone will be able to read your posts and give you advice :-).

[Twiz]

I'm sorry >.< here let me try that. I just am so upset, let me fix it...

[IndiReloaded]

Maybe if you split your wall of text into paragraphs, someone will be able to read your posts and give you advice :-).

Sorry Twiz, I tried too but wall of text...

[Twiz]

it should be broken up now...

[Twiz]

Well since it's so much text... Details and every little thing that happened aren't that important to sum it up and sort of update, because I am still confused... here's basically what happened:

My bf broke up with me for no apparent reason after 2 years. He made me believe everything was ok, literally, was acting normal and told me we'd be together that day and everything, Sunday I got in his car, he called me baby, kissed me, and then asked if I missed him since he hadn’t seen me since that Friday. He started driving, had a weird look on his face, pulled the car over and randomly said “I am not ready to be with someone. I’m not ready for a relationship. I’m not mature enough”. He is 18, I’m 19. we had been together 2 yrs! it made no sense. no one saw it coming either.

I put all his stuff in a box and weds I left it on his porch for him to find. His mom said when he found it he was sad?

After days out of nowhere yesterday my ex called me. This is where I wondered if he was crazy because... I answer the phone and he first says to me "why did you give me my stuff back?" and I said "because you broke up with me." and he said "well, they were gifts. I want you to have them" and I was like "yeah, from when we were going out. you broke up with me" and he was like "but I kept all of your things. they're still in my room" and he kept saying he wanted me to take the things back cause they were gifts and I said "it's not the same". He literally called me "baby" multiple times during this conversation and I said "why do you keep calling me baby?" and he said "it became a habit" and I kept trying to ask him why he broke up with me and he kept telling me he just wasn't ready for a relationship. I kept telling him it made no sense because he had already been in one for 2 years and I asked what he wasn't ready for and he kept repeating himself and apologizing to me. I asked if he still loved me and he said not anymore, he loved me as a friend, not as a girlfriend anymore, how he DID love me, but not now. He never talked to any other girls, I know that for a fact so it's not like there's anyone else he's interested in. Idk if pressure from graduating high school and going to college is causing him to have a break down or what.

He told me at one point during the conversation how "I thought about how long we were together and it was overwhelming and I realized I'm not ready for the next step" I asked him "well what do you think the next step is? what's the next step for you? there was no pressure to get married or move in or anything like that anytime soon" and he said "i know, I'm just not ready to be with someone. I'm sticking by my decision". He told me Tues night when he saw me he went home and questioned if he wanted to be with me. But nothing bad happened that night, we didn't fight or anything.

It was so frustrating because it made no sense, he kept repeating himself.

I wondered if something was mentally wrong with him because:

1) He seriously couldn't grasp why I gave him his stuff back
2) on the phone he was still calling me baby, if you end it with someone wouldn't you make it a point to not call them by a pet name?
3) the fact that over night he decided he suddenly didn't love me anymore, after 2 yrs
4) he called on our anniversary, he could've called that day when I left the box of stuff on his porch then.
5) he always had tendencies to be impulsive based on other situations that've happened
6)when something bad would happen he'd always show little/no remorse/sympathy

[Joshua1]

it is amazing!

[steviej]

Wow, what a marathon read! By the time i got to the end i'd forgotten what happened at the start, but what i picked up from it was you seem to completely smother him with text messages then get moody when he doesn't reply in seconds.
Sounds like he just got fed up of the hassle of the relationship, it stopped being easy and fun and instead became hard work - constantly having to explain his whereabouts, what he's doing, who he's doing it with etc.
I don't doubt that he still has feelings for you, but his new found freedom will possibly be more appealing. All you can do now is give him space and try to move on. He may (given some time) really miss you and try to get back, that's up to you what you do then, but don't count on it happening, just a possibility.
Bottom line, it's over. Try your best to move on and no contact with him!

[Twiz]

I told him if he had wanted more space I would have respected it completely. I asked anything I could think of for as to why he might've done that. I asked if he wanted to see more people, he said "no", I asked if we saw/talked to each other too much and he said "no, you're a sweet girl, it's not that, it's me. You didn't do anything" I asked if he was afraid of anything and he said "no" and I told him there was no rush for marriage or anything. Bottom line was he wasn't being honest to me, which is obvious. You think after 2 years he would've told me he was having doubts when he first started questioning everything. Or if he apparently loved me so much you think he would've wanted to work it out, but he was only concerned about how he felt.

I want him to be happy and I want to be happy as well. I wanted to be happy with him, but he didn't/doesn't want the same. He had seemed happy with me, all up until he ended it. Of course I'd never know how he really felt.

He called me Thursday, he was more concerned about me taking his stuff back than how I felt. He kept telling me he wanted me to cheer up and to stay strong and be happy, as if I was supposed to be alright with it happening... I know one day I'd be happy again, on my own, and eventually with someone else.

I haven't talked to him since or his family. I am letting him be alone if that's what he wanted.

It was just odd he went home Tuesday night after everything was happy and questioned being with me. Then acted as if everything was fine and was still being nice to me and everything. Anything that happened later that week I was understanding of though, a few things were awkward but we'd had some awkward days/moments before but worked them out, like any relationship.

It was just hard. I am slowly feeling better though.

His friends had tried talking to him and they asked me if I was ok, they told me he wasn't making any sense. My ex told his one friend, who then told me, how my ex said: "I didn't feel like I was ready to be with someone. there is many things I must be ready for when I'm with someone like her. As amazing as she is. I didn't feel like I was ready for someone as amazing as her. It's true, it's how I felt. I didn't want to hurt her"

Which I am not sure if he was doubting himself, or if he wanted "freedom", or what's going on in his head. But he thought abruptly ending it was somehting he "had to do" and he hadn't talked to anyone about it, he told me he "decided this on my own" that one night. It's almost been one week since it ended at this point I shouldn't completely care. His mom earlier this week told me he hasn't even gone out, he hasn't been doing much or even been online she said. So it's as if he's completely isolating himself from everyone it seems.

But he's had anxiety issues in the past, was always impulsive regarding many things, tendencies to be violent and act out by punching, but never towards me. He never cared much for if something bad were to happen, he'd try rationalizing things if he'd hurt someone physically or emotionally. Like when he got suspended from school, for the third time for something violence related, first he felt bad and then rationalized how he's a great person and that the kid ultimately deserved it. At 14 or 15 he was caught by the cops for being on a roof/trespassing. At 17 and 18 he was still t-ping houses and putting saran wrap around poles so cars would drive through it. He'd get frustrated easily. He never felt remorse for anything he'd do that'd hurt others or in general. I thought he was just being immature but I believe it goes beyond anger problems and immaturity.

[Twiz]

Sorry for double posts. But today he talked to me again and told me: "I'm not ready for a serious relationship like the one we had yet. I am going to start college and everyone was asking me questions like what I was gonna do in the future like job wise and with my girlfriend and where I will go and I burned out and didn't want to do anything anymore. I'm not ready to move onto the next step like go to college and get a job and eventually move out with my girlfriend or be in a real relationship. I've felt all of this and I'm not ready for any of it. I need time alone now to recoup. I'm 18 and I still feel young and not ready for any of this. I want to take my life slower."

So, essentially, he's afraid to grow up...

[sssspanos]

He wants to play around, still he s in love with you.. It s typical , I can understand it. I think he realizes his true self needs more experiences , specially in this age.

I think it s time for both to move on.. Of course you are more mature , you need something certain in your life - he doesn't .

Good luck!

[Fredri1]

it is amazing!

[Twiz]

I know he's young but it hurt so much because it was like one giant mind ****, you think if he was going to end it he would've done something more along the lines of being well not as nice, not leading me to believe we'd even hang out that day.

It also hurt because when I started college last year I was so loyal to him. Other guys would have interest in me and I did not leave him. I easily could have left him since he was still in high school and I was in my "next stage" but I stuck with him. It's like the biggest kick in the ass.

I had 2 other boyfriend's prior to my most recent ex, but I had not fallen in love with them and they did not last as long as this one did. He had been in one relationship before me and it didn't last long, only a few weeks and he thought they were better as friends, which in a couple weeks it's understandable to realize. But 2 years and he tells me he's not ready for a relationship is such bull. How he's anxious to "grow up" is normal but I didn't see how dumping me would "slow down" his "next stage"... It wouldn't. College is coming either way and he's gonna have to grow up.

He left me for whatever reason, stress or wanting some strange, who knows. But I had never been that hurt in my life before.

I have ups and downs still about it. I'm so used to having him in my life that I still will hope he will text me like he used to but I know that it's over and it won't happen.

I've accepted that it's over but he is still on my mind. I don't want to think about him but it happens if something reminds me of him or in general he'll still be on my mind.

I know if he would've wanted it to work or if he realized he made a mistake he would talk to me first and make an effort... but he doesn't care and if he really loved me he wouldn't have done that, he's not "the one" for me then.

Apart of me thinks it's a good thing it's over because there were many qualities that weren't so great about him. Despite how he'd do cute things for me sometimes or be sweet usually, he wasn't very savvy with fixing things or with directions, he'd judge me many times or call me insecure when I'd happen to occasionally get jealous about something, he wouldn't really stick up for me if other guys were disrespectful, he wasn't very reassuring if I'd feel bad about something, he had a short temper and got easily frustrated, he was immature, had several suspensions from school for violence related issues, had terrible work ethic and wasn't entirely motivated when it came to work/school, he was disrespectful, rude/jerk sometimes, selfish, very defensive, lied to me several times/sneaky.

I feel like if I stayed with him I would have had most of the responsibility like paying bills, doing everything around the house, and since he apparently left me because he wasn't ready for the next step in his life (like college, moving out, a job) then who knows if we were engaged if he'd say "i'm not ready for this" and leave me then, or hey, if I was pregnant and if he wasn't ready to be a father if he would have left me then as well.

I'm only 19 but I have this fear of, and I know it's unrealistic, that I won't meet anyone else. Or that I'll be single until I am 35 or longer and never find someone. Or that it'll all happen again and again. How do I not worry? Despite all that happened I still think of him. How do I stop thinking about him? Or feel better about it all?

[IndiReloaded]

You'll meet someone else, don't worry. This too shall pass. Meantime, do other things that you enjoy and make you a better person. All you can do.