For those who remember me and my situation, here is an update and a BIG thankyou to everybody that helped me through a pretty rough time. After the police were informed of what had been going on, they started the investigation by gathering my witnesses, evidence etc to charge my ex boyfriend. He was arrested and released on bail with a restriction order and strict conditions.
Things have been great for months now! I feel he has disapeared from the face of the earth.
I slowly have recovered my self esteem and happiness after lots of counselling, support and time alone. So thankyou to those who helped me see the truth and helped me do the right thing.
Since then, i have been seeing old friends again, happier at work, i havnt cried since the date i went to court, which used to be an everyday thing for me when i was with my ex. I have never felt so proud of myself and it just feels great.
My question for today! I have been very happily single, which i thought was impossible for me! lol A while ago i had met a guy and thought absolutely nothing of it, wasnt really interested at first at all. Since then, we have spent more time together as time has passed. First just great company as a friend, up until a month ago things became a little more 'romantic'. He started joining me on daily outings with my daughter, helped me grocery shop, brings me coffee sometime on a morning and i just noticed little things that were turning a little more away from strictly friends.
Up until last week it was my daughters birthday friends and all our friends came. He asked if he could join and i agreed, he helped me set everything up, was just awesome the whole day! It was later that day that he told me he liked me... That night we kissed and i felt something i hadnt felt in a long time..
Without looking for something it came to me, and i dont know what to think about it! Now all of a sudden i think of him in a completely different way, i smile everytime he texts, i giggle like a little girl at his jokes, i am actually looking forward to seeing him again.
My problem, i also very suddenly feel unsure about myself, almost uneasy. Is this a sign that meeting someone is too soon for me? All these feelings just came flooding to me, one of the main feelings of, he is just a little too good to be true. He always wants to talk, which i love, we can talk on the phone for hours like best friends could, he is always planning our next 'meet up', complimenting me..
If something feels too good to be true, then should i follow that? Or is it my insecurity popping up from the effects of my abuse? I trusted him and didnt have a worry when we were just friends and now i am worried.
Should i keep my guard up and go with the flow? Or put it down to me being not at all ready for anything with anybody else?
Thanks in advance