I had been with my boyfriend for pretty much 2 years. This week would have marked 2 years. He out of nowhere dumped me recently. It makes no sense why out of nowhere he'd do this. The sickest thing is that he made me feel like it wouldn't have happened. If I look back it was all a little weird since last monday. We had an awesome weekend like a week ago. I cut his hair we had a really good time. I saw him last friday and saturday. Well that sunday I asked if monday if hed wanna see me. he said he would. last minute that night he told me about some college thing he forgot about at DCCC and that he couldn't hang out, that he was sorry and that later than night hed see me after the meeting. Which I felt kinda funny like it wouldn't work out that night but I was still looking forward to it. Monday comes and we are talking as if everything's ok. he told me after his meeting hed pick me up and wed see each other. He gets back from school and talks to me til 5-7 when he had that meeting. He texted me when it was over and said "ill see you soon " well it's 8 that night, then 8:30 and he tells me he's helping his grandma with her car? Yeah, sounded like bullshit. Then 8:40 he tells me I can come over. So I say "are you gonna pick me up?" and he said "no, I don't have the car" so I asked my mom for a ride I was basically at his house and I was like "well I thought you were gonna pick me up like you said. and it's almost 9 now I thought we'd at least be together an hour ago" and he was rude and was all "well, idk what to tell you. I told you i didn't have the car. and now my mom doesn't really want anyone over now" he blamed his mother... and I said "ok, well I'm like outside of your house though, you just said I could come over and I'm like here so just come outside" and he was all "what do you mean?! I told you you couldn't come over!" and I said "nick, just come outside" he kept telling me to hold on. Eventually after waiting like an idiot I got back in the car but crying because he didn't even want to come outside even just to say hi, which at that point was all I wanted. But whatever, like I saw it as a misunderstanding. I know he was busy going over college stuff so I just saw it as a misunderstanding.
Tuesday he talks to me like everything's fine. He comes to my house with chocolates cause he said he had a gift for me for those past couple days so he came over with chocolates to make up for it. we relaxed, he ate, we talked, everything seemed ok, we did everything we normally would when we'd hang out.
Well wednesday happens and I see him. We talk more about college and I had a weird feeling, for some reason I got kinda emotional and said "I know things won't always be the same. like I know you'll be in college too and we'll have different schedules. But I still want us to be together." and he wasn't reassuring at all and was randomly like "well, I'll be in college now, and I'm gonna meet new people. And I'm gonna wanna hang out with them more too. so don't be bummed out if I don't reply to you as much cause I know that bums you out. Oh, and I'm going to get a job too. and I can't text at work cause they have cameras. I'd get fired." and I was like "nick, that's so random, it had nothing to do with what I just said" and he said "I know, I just wanted to say that cause tomorrow I'm hanging out with my friends" and I was like "uhmm ok?" like he wasn't reassuring but I got over it.
Well thursday comes he texts me in the morning as if it's all ok, he gets done school and talks to me still like everything's fine. til he meets up with his friends his texts were delayed and not sending really but he was in a basement and although I was kinda bummed out and just wanted to talk, he was busy and I was understanding.
Friday comes and he talks to me still like everything's fine. I see him after my classes and it still seemed alright. Like I noticed he hadn't been as flirty with me lately, but apparently still enough for him to still want to have sex with me all that week... ok well anyway... so it still seemed alright at that point, we were hanging out and playing games, then that night he asked if I wanted to go to the mall so we did. before we go to the mall his dad asked him if he wanted to go to NYC with him on saturday to see his family. He agreed. I didn't know he was going to NY I thought we were going to hang out, I was a little bummed but I flat out told him that I wanted him to do what he wanted and that I had thought we were gonna hang out but if he wanted to see his family then I'd find something else to do and that I wanted him to have a good time. and he was all defensive and like "well it's only one day. and I haven't seen them in years" and I brought up how so many times I ducked out of things just to be with him instead and he was all "well thats sweet" but in the mall I stopped him and wanted to talk more because I really felt like he wasn't understanding me. I told him again how I was a little bummed cause I didn't know he was gonna go but that I still just wanted him to do what he wanted and to have a good time. well again he was like "well it's good to switch things up. You know, some days we don't always have to be together" and I was so confused and said "well what do you mean? like I like what we have? if it'd be a usual day we'd see each other then why wouldn't you want to be with me?" and he kept saying how it's good to switch things up. But like I got over that all and saw something I liked, I looked at him jokingly like that I wanted the item, he asked if he wanted me to have him pay for it and I said "no" and I payed for it myself. Then I guess after he thought I looked bothered, so I talked to him more about in the store. I explained he'd never have to buy me anything, how some guys insist on that and how it's nice but that he'd never have to do that. Well he insisted I take 20 bucks from him and I said "no, nick, it's weird. I can't do that. stop, like I already payed for it, it's fine really" and he made me take the money anyway. It was awkward.
Then outside of the mall we ran into people he knew. I didn't know any of them. the one kid goes up to nick and says "hi" turns to me and says "and who's this tramp?" well I got mad and turned to nick and said "aren't you going to say something?! you're my boyfriend?" and he half ass stuck up for me, i felt. Nick kept saying that's just how the kid joked. the kid apologized a bunch but whatever I was over it.
Saturday comes and he texts me. his replies were super delayed by like 30 mins, but I figured it was cause he was busy getting ready or maybe he was in NY and just busy. at one point saturday he didn't reply for like an hour. it seemed like he turned off his phone and then got my messages eventually. he replied all sweet saying he didn't want me to be bothered about not seeing him, which I kept explaining it was fine... and I asked "hey what happened? you didnt reply?" and he said "oh you didnt reply to me. and then I fell asleep. sorry" I said "yes I did reply. you shouldve gotten something in a few minutes and if you didnt im surprised you didnt send me something letting me know before you went to sleep. you went to sleep and didnt even tell me. and he was just all "lol. sorry" and whatever I got over that too. and he kept replying late. at one point it was like 5pm that day and he was like "sorry. my dads making me drive now" a half hour later he replies saying he was sorry and that he was done driving and I said "if you were gonna drive why didn't you let me know? you usually do or say something cute?" and he kept saying he was busy. all day h was being nice to me though, but he kept saying he was busy and would reply 30 mins later. but I was of coursed a little bummed, but didn't directly say i was sad or anything I was understanding cause I figured he was busy. But later that night I said I just wanted to have a conversation and it was really unlike him even if he'd be out to send such short replies. and he just kept saying he was busy but would say things back to me like "baby " and "I love you!" and "youre so sweet" and "my cutie baby cupcake" like all the shit wed normally say...
well that night I was trying to be cute by saying "I know you're having a good time with your family but it wouldve been nice if we were together too . I kinda miss you, but don't think it's weird" and he was like "whats weird?" and I said "nothing, I was trying to be cute" and I said everything I previously did like how I missed him and how I didn't want him to think it was weird. and he was like "Jackie I'm with my family. it's only a day" and I was like "omg, Iknew youd say that I just was trying to b cute" and he was like "i didn't know" well I got passed that too, and like we continued talking and he was still being nice and sweet when he was going to bed. I asked him that night if he could text me when he'd wake up and that I hoped wed flirt more that next day and talk more and he said he would.
well the next day comes, sunday... and he doesn't text me in the morning but I figured it was cause he was busy so I didn't bother texting him either. 11:30am his dad texts me from nicks phone saying how nicks driving and that he can't talk. Which I was understanding of i replied by saying id talk to him when he was home then. so 15-20 mins later his dad talks to me again saying how nick would be home at noon. nick gets home, he texts me like everythings alright, he was being nice. he even said hed flirt more with me cause I brought up how he hasn't much it seemed lately and he was all "i understand baby I'll do my part" and he was all "well see each other today " all nice and shit and I was like joking saying "aww you remembered " and he oddly and awkwardly said "of course I wanted to just I was with my family" which was odd of him to say, like I kept telling him I understood. but anyway, I was looking forward to it.
around 1 sunday he was like "it's a nice day wanna meet up?" I said "give me like some time to finish getting ready." and he said "ok baby take your time " so I tell him im ready and he happily tells me he'll come and pick me up. so he's calling me cute and shit all before this. then he honks, then texts me that hes here with a smiley face in the text.
I get in the car... he says "hey baby" he kisses me, asked me "did you miss me?" I said "well, yeah" like I said yeah cause what else was I supposed to say? well then he had a weird look on his face, then he started driving but pulled around my corner and parked and I knew something was up. at first I didnt know what I thought "omg did something happen in NY? is he going to tell me I seem sensitive lately ot something?" like then I said "nick, whats going on" and he was all "I'm not ready to be in a relationship right now" and I started crying and said "what do you mean?! it's been 2 years!" and he said "I just want to be alone. I don't want to be with you. I can't be with anyone right now. I'm just not mature enough. I'm not ready for this" and I said "nick, what the **** are you talking about? there was no preassure I didn't plan on getting married anytime soon or moving in or anything" and he just kept saying sorry and how he just wanted to be alone.
and I said "well it sounds like bullshit. it's been 2 years and youre saying this. this is somethig someone decides in 2 months, not TWO YEARS" and i was like "what is it? do you think I'm too clingy? if you want more space I'll give you more space? do you want to see other girls? like what is it? what did I do?!" and he said the cliche of "it's not you. its me" and I said "omg, well did you talk to anyone about this?" and he was all "no, it's something I decided on my own. I'm sorry. I still love you. youre like the closest thing I have to a friend. I love you so much. I still want to be in your life." and I said "no, youre not sorry. and if you still loved me you wouldn't be doing this to me" and then I said "well how long have you been thinking like this?" and he said a week. and I said "well then why were you so nice to me and acted like everything was ok? why did you call me sweet things, kiss me, and ask if I missed you if you were going to just break up with me?" and he said "YOU kissed me. and I just wanted to make you happy" I said "NO that makes it worse" and I seriously was about to leave the car and he got kind of mad and was like "NO. I am NOT letting you leave here worse than you are" and I said "it's kind of hard and too late for that. I am NOT going to be happy now since you broke my heart." he kept saying sorry and that he didn't want me to cry. well what the **** else was supposed to happen? and then I was like "I thought we were going to have a nice day. I thought it would make up for everything that had happened. I was looking forward to so much. this week was going to be 2 years together. I even bought a prom dress already!" and I was just so upset. I sat there crying for like an hour and a half and my dad noticed nicks car parked and called me. I answered the phone and nick was just like "oh no" and then my dad came up to the car and asked me what was wrong and I cried how "nick doesn't want to be with me anymore" and my dad took me out of nicks car and turned to nick and said "you know, she really did love you nick" and nick awkwardly pulled off and I assume went home. I havent heard from him since. Idk what he told his parents. His parents liked me so I don't know if they'd try to contact me. I wondered if he'd regret it and contact me at some point, but he doesn't seem to be regretting it as far as I've seen. I've felt horrible though.