abusive realationship+rape= sex addict? WAT

[xXMRadkeXx]

Okay, so basically at the age of 13 i lost my virginity to a complete controlling and abusive wanker who would force me to do things i didnt want too and basically use me. since then i got into self harm and attempted suicide 4 times, and once out the other side of that, i have learnt how to manipulate people so easily, i can and will get any guy or girl i want wether for sex, to play with their emotions or just because im bored. im pretty much a sex addict, i masturbate and watch porn ALOT and have sex with my boyfreind a few times a week atleast while stringing along the emotions of various other people just because its fun.

basically, does anyone have any clue what the hell happened there? i dont want to be judged or diagnosed, i would just like a little clearance on the matter of my sex addiction.

[Wakeup]

Where were your parents when this wanker was being a vile turd? Did you tell them what he did? Have you ever told the police what he did? Have you ever had therapy for what you do?

P.S. What is "clearance on your sex addiction" actually mean? Your therapist will help you to understand the hot mess that is you but sex a couple of times a week is nary an addiction.

[xXMRadkeXx]

i didnt say anything to anyone, i loved him and thought we could work through it somehow. Yes im aware that sex a couple of times a week is not a sex addiction, but the sex plus the masturbation plus the fact that i just look at people and want to **** them constitutes quite a problem, especially with staying faithful. also in regards to therapy, the services offering therapy around me are wasting their time on 'omgz in a bipolar 13 year old' attention seekers so im on a ****ton of waiting lists, and tbh ive had phsycotherapy and cognotive behavioral therapy in the past but i just seen to relapse and revert back to being like this .....

[Wakeup]

Are you off your meds, doll? (I don't mean any disrespect by that.. it's a serious question)

[xXMRadkeXx]

i am indeed they made me ill and worse than i was without them tbh so i just weaned mysef off them

[Wakeup]

No, NO and NO. You must go back to your doc and tell him they made you ill and he will revise them. Weaning yourself off of the type of drugs that you would need to be on is a very bad thing to do. (as you know).

Off to the doc with you a.s.a.p.