Hello again,
I'm having a huge hangover right now, maybe because of that hard partying, so you'll have to cope with possible misspelling I'll try to be brief, and explain what happened:
I saw G#1 late friday night. We talked, drank some beverages, had a nice night after all. Everyone of our friends came asking if we're going together, is there something between you guys etc... Where she only could mumble something in return.
I spent some time with the G#2 also. And guess what, we talked, had fun, but that was kinda it. But I assume that when I've known the G#1 for almost 3 years now when the G#2 has been "in my life" for a week or so.. There's actually a huge process going on with the G#2.
One of my friends f***ed up, and I ended up without any place to stay over. I told G#1 if I could stay @ her place once again, and yes, she accepted.
Saturday:
I woke up, and messed around with G#1 (nothing physical, just hanging around and something like that)...
Later on, I started drinking again (2nd day of our small rock-festival), and off I went to see my other friends.
*Couple hours went by*
I saw G#1 & her buddies camping about few hundred meters away, but didn't interact with her at all.
Later on, I was with the G#2, but the time with her was brief this time (got many friends from distant locations, coming only here for this festival).
At night, I stayed with the G#1, and once again I heard her saying that "I'm the only one for her" - or something like that. That sounded kinda funny, 'cause not a minute ago I saw her kissing with her BFF. (guy, 10 years friendship)
When I confronted them, They both said that they had nothing between them... Weird enough to forget this girl, but wait, there's more!
I had no place to stay AGAIN, thanks to my lovely friend who got too drunk again and forgot me - So I asked the G#1 if it's okay to sleep at hers place again.
When we arrived there, she bursted into tears (G#1, if someone lost it already)
She told me everything about her childhood, her being distressed, and about his ex - bf (I heard something horrible, raping for instance...) -- And that's the reason WHY SHE CAN'T HAVE A RELATIONSHIP now!
Now, this is where I thought (Okay, no hard feelings, it might be just easier this way)... But when the morning came, she apologized everything she said before, kissed me, and left for her cousins confirmation party.
So, I've made my conclusion: What I've heard from other ppl, G#1 is really interested in me. She's been talking about me @ school before the summer vacation. She ignores every guy who tries to hook up with her.
BUT she is too messed up from the inside, because all of that angst she's been hiding from everyone but her psychiatrist (and me from now).
G#2 is a shy girl. I've heard that she's even virgin. I heard that she likes me. (Her BFF, and those do not lie, do they?)
I'm kinda frustrated here now. Why G#1 just won't say it stright NO NO's... Guess it's that she's trying to beat her traumas and stuff like that (OR maybe she's just ****ing with me, playing with me whenever she likes?)
As what it comes to G#2, she's my 1. bet from now on. And what it comes to G#1... Dunno.. time will tell.
Going for some aspirin. ->