Hey guys, it's 5am I'm sat up in bed and can't sleep so I thought I'd use the time to look for a forum where people could give me some useful advice.
I've been in a happy, and very loving relationship for the last 14 months, with the absolute love of my life and it all went wrong in the space of an hour last night.
She was due to go away for work for a couple of days so we decided that we would spend our Saturday together doing something fun. We went for some food, then to check out some bands at a local music event in the afternoon/evening. We had a great time there and she kissed me and told me she loved me, everything was perfect. We then called a cab and made our way in to town, stopping at a couple of bars. The second bar we went to was quite lively, everyone was dancing, and I saw some people I knew, so had a bit of a dance with them. At around 11:30 I realised my girlfriend had disappeared, I couldn't find her anywhere, tried calling her mobile and messaging her but got no response. Then after about 30 minutes she replied to my message saying she had 'got caught up in something, but not to worry, and that she was ok. This made me worry so I called her over and over until she eventually answered. When she picked up the phone she said she was at a party at someone's house, she knew roughly where it was but wasn't 100% sure, and that she didn't want me to go there. I kept calling her and telling her to come home, we were supposed to be on a night out together, but she refused. I got more and more angry, and it didn't help that I had been drinking, then I did something completely out of character, I went to her place and smashed her TV up, punching it twice. My hand was bleeding all over the place and I couldn't believe what I had done, so I quickly cleaned most of the blood up and left. Not long afterwards the police turned up at my place, put me in the back of their van and took me to the station, but they let me go after around half an hour because she dropped the charges.
I saw my girlfriend this morning, she refused to talk to me and just said 'it's over', then later on she left my things in the garage on her way to the airport.
I have ordered a new TV, and apologised to her as much as I can without it getting annoying.
I feel so empty right now and I don't know what to do to make things better, she was and still is the total love of my life.
She goes a bit crazy when she's had a drink, and the way I see it is that she did something crazy, which in turn made me do something that was also crazy and out of character.
I can't stop thinking that if I'd only kept my cool she would've been the one who woke up feeling like a fool, but we would've kissed and made up and it all would've been normal again. Instead I did something ridiculous and I could live to regret it for the rest of my days.