So this wasn't a 'relationship' but read on and you'll see why I am posting here...
So for the past few months I have been intimate with a friend of mine. For many complicated reasons, we didn't put a label on it. Unfortunately as we became intimate (we never actually had sex, I cared too much and wanted to take it slow) he began to use me to express all the problems and confusion in his life. Many times he stated he wanted space, with no timeframe. Usually he would be fine a few days later. I found out along the way he had bipolar, aspergers and also lots of serious family problems current and in the past and had a bad relationship a few years ago. He also is a smoker, a very heavy drug user and often drinks too much. Yeah, I know...I should have stayed well away. It's hard though when you care about someone, and find all this out when it's too late.
Anyway, I pushed him when it was one too many times he needed 'space'...he cracked and 2 weeks of anxiety were had, him finally saying he wanted to catch up and explain things to me. He backed out, and I said it was hurting me which he obviously didn't like and just ended things. I got no explanation and tried to get something out of him but was met with multiple texts of abuse and threats. It hurt so much, I had lost my friend simply for caring. I found out a few days ago he seemed to think I thought we were in a relationship...but I knew we weren't. I'm just hurting so much because I trusted and cared for him so much and we got on so well. I miss him so much, and I honestly wish I'd kept our interactions purely on a friend basisThere seems to be nothing left, nothing that I can do to be able to speak to him in a rational way. I still am not even quite sure the exact reasons he ended our friendship. I feel so hurt and confused by this, it is almost consuming me. No, we weren’t in a relationship, but I considered him one of my best friends and I’ve lost him and been COMPLETELY cut out of his life.
I still don’t even know if he completely understands that my actions were because I cared for him as a friend. I didn’t want a relationship out of him. It’s like he has a completely different view on the situation, that motivates his actions.
I don’t know what to do. I feel there is no hope but I am so lost![]()