I have a crush. I'll be 27 in January so it feels weird to say I have a "crush." But I do. I can no longer deny it.
When I was 16 I had a friend, an older woman friend, who taught me about horses and life and was pretty much my coach for riding. She had two boys, just little kids, 8 and 10. I loved her boys and I look back on those days fondly. I moved away to WA and grew up. Well, I moved back to CA last month and....well...that little 8 year old boy is now a tall, handsome, polite and kind 18 year old man. Well...boy-man. He's a mature 18 year old with a job and a car and a life.
I'm not an idiot and I know when a guy is attracted to me. He has been putting the moves on since I moved home. I keep telling myself he's too young, I'm too old, what would his mom think, this feels weird, I knew him when he was just a tiny kid! But the feelings aren't going away. We both love horses, we both love God, we are attracted to each other, and he is a one woman kind of guy. He says "to heck with our age," and doesn't really care, but social norms are really hindering me!
I've always liked OLDER guys. Guys that are secure in who they are, are settled in their career, and ready to settle down.
I don't know WHY I feel this way. Trust me, if you knew me, you'd be flabbergasted. I have always been extremely opposed to dating men even a year or two younger than me.
I'm just confused. What do you guys think?