Hi,
So me and my girlfriend were together for 5 years. About a month ago now we broke up - her idea. She says she needs space and time to sort some of her own problems out. (I think the responsibility of a relationship is a lot for her at the minute). Obviously I'm heartbroken and totally gutted but I understand where she's coming from. I'm there for her for everything and she knows it, and she's also there for me in the same way.
We haven't lost touch and still speak to each other like we always have (less the "I love you"s - although I know we both still do). The past week we've spent a lot of time with each other and we've stayed over (4 times in the last week), sleeping in the same bed naked and cuddling as we always have. We've also slept together a few times. We link arms in public but don't kiss.
Sometimes she leans in to give me a kiss but at the last minute pulls away because it's "wrong", "we're not together" and "friends don't do that".
I kind of feel like she's seeing me so much to fill the hole that has been left in our lives since we broke up. I don't want to loose her, and I want to be there for her. She's obviously not in a mental state to be in a relationship right now, but it's sending me crazy us almost acting like we're together but at the same not. I'm happy to wait for her and carry on like this if we would get back together at some point and I knew that there won't be anyone else.
She knows where I stand, and I think if I said to her "I can't just be friends with you" then it would be goodbye. That I really don't want.
Sorry for the essay, any help or advice??
Thanks in advance
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