I know exactly how you feel mate. This year i lost the absolute love of my life, i never knew it was possible to feel that strongly about someone, she was all i thought of morning, noon and night. She was my best friend and the love of my life. We didn't speak at all for a couple of months and i was so miserable i couldn't think straight. Thankfully we have now settled our differences and we are at least friends again and we can chat and hang out and have a laugh like we used to do. That does mean an awful lot to me, to lose my soul mate and my best friend in one go was just way too much too bare. When we finally started talking again she told me she was seeing someone new, i got to admit that was a total knife in my soul but i tried not to show my disappontment too much, i wanted her to be happy even if it wasn't with me, so i tried to hide my disappointment as much as i could for her sake but also for the sake of our friendship. I had reluctantly come to the conclusion that i would rather have her in my life as my best friend than not at all. She has always been there for me through thick and thin even before we started dating, i always knew i could rely on her 100% when i needed someone and you just can't get friends like that every day. I never wanted to give up on her because she never gave up on me. I know she'll always be a totallly reliable friend and i'm so glad i could at least salvage that much.
Some days i try and think aabout moving on and meeting someone new but like you i think i have rather come to the conclusion that maybe i was just meant to be alone. I don't think i'll ever manage to find someone who i felt like that about again. I think part of me never wants to let go of that unique feeling i had for this person {S}Perhaps i just have to accept that and try not to let it bother me too much, i don't know, i don't really have the answers. Maybe some of us weren't meant to find someone, apparently there is someone out there for everyone but i'm beginning to doubt the truth of that. At least i knew what it was like to love someone completely and with all my heart. It was a wonderful feeling while it lasted, such a shame it had to end but nothing lasts for ever i suppose. Maybe one day we'll get to try again, stranger things have happened, i would like to at least try but i know i also have to be realistic and accept that she has moved on, either way i'll have experienced a feeling for someone that made me the happiest i've ever been and that's somethig to be thankful for.