I made this post before and a bunch of people viewed it but no one replied, I'm thinking it was too long haha so I'm gonna take out the unnecessary details and hope that someone can answer me this time around!
Long story short: 2 years ago my ex dumped me for another girl, I was depressed & very upset about it, my friends took me out to the bar to get my mind off things, I met a really cute bartender, after meeting him a few times he asked for my # and we ended up hooking up. At the time I didn't know he had a gf so he lied and said they broke up, I found out he did have one, I didn't hang out with him again until they were done. We hooked up for a few months and then he started seriously dating another girl, I was devastated because I liked him a lot, stopped talking to/seeing him.
He kept texting me asking to hang out, I didn't want to go because I felt it was wrong hooking up with someone who had a girlfriend, eventually he was getting so annoying that I ended up blocking his number from my phone. Didn't talk to him for about 6 months and hadn't seen him for a year, found out he was single in August, we started talking again then and have been hooking up since.
Since hooking up with him again my feelings have been brought back and are even stronger, we now hook up a lot more often than in the past and actually hang out, watch movies, eat food together etc. but are not dating. I know he isn't right for me, he's an alcoholic who recently had to go to the hospital cause of internal bleeding due to drinking, has actually TOLD ME he sometimes sleeps with other girls, cares about me but doesn't think we would work in a relationship, has weird mood swings. Yet throughout all of this crap I somehow care and have feelings for him. I don't want to do it anymore and I need help getting myself over him and moving along, hanging out with him is holding me back and wasting my time, but I can't take my own advice. Please help!