Hello, I wonder if you can help me. I have been seeing a chap on and off for the last 18 months. We got back together at the beginning of December. He has a very close relationship with his ex (I will refer to her as 'J') - the mother of his children. I have previously checked his text messages to discover very flirtatious texts exchanged between them. He also has a close female friend (I will refer to as 'S') who he met on line and dated for about 8 months just before he met me. Two weeks after we got back together in December I again checked his phone and found out he had made plans to go on a skiing holiday with S. He knows I am very uncomfortable with their relationship; they often meet up to go to the cinema, play squash, have dinner in very expensive restaurants, he invites her to watch him play hockey, they go to comedy clubs etc. He insists she is just a friend and constantly reassures me that he has no desire to sleep with S or J, has no sexual feelings towards either of them. When we got back together in December he asked me to move in with him - so our relationship was a serious one.
I'm struggling with why he would say lovely things to me, ask me to move in, suggest we spend the rest of our lives together, introduce me to his children, give me money, take me on holiday but still do things behind my back. He said he wasn't sure how he was going to tell me about the holiday. What's really important here is that although he made the arrangements prior to us getting back together, he actually booked the holiday after we got back together. I can expect you're thinking, well maybe he does actually love you and is genuine and S IS really just a friend.
But, they will be sharing a room.
He is a very charismatic and flirtatious person by nature. Has a lot of female friends. He says I'm out of his league. He has previously cheated on partners and has been very open and honest with me about his past. But I am really struggling to believe him when he says there's nothing going on.
I've taken today off of work, today is the day they fly. I didn't sleep at all last night and the little sleep I did have I dreamt of him. I love him. I know he loves me. But why does he have such little respect for me. Thank you x