I am still madly in love with my ex after 3 years. We have a child together and see each other often. We have shared a few cuddles this last while and intermittently since we broke up. For reasons that will take too long to explain, we broke up and seemed much happier apart. We are best friends but it had become as if we that's all we were, best friends. So I ended it, with much dismay. I really didn't want to but I knew I had to.
Now we're both in better places mentally, and we still show so much care for one another. I know there is still love there. I would hope so. But I am seeing someone else these last two years. I have become less and less attached to my current partner. I fear the honeymoon is wearing off and we're just not compatible. I find myself pulling away from him when he wants to kiss. Which is rarely these days. We haven't been sleeping together recently and I just have a general lack of interest in him. We're so different and now that the lust part is starting to slip, I can barely see a reason we should stay together. We live together too which is an added nightmare to think about.
I'm very confused. I want my ex in my life as much as possible. I am also very capable of being alone, something I never thought I could be before we split up. But I have become my own person, gained independence and a life for myself, which was probably a major factor into why things went so sour when we were together. I found attention and excitement with my current partner, but as I said, now all I can see are the negatives of being with him.
It's frustrating. Four months ago, I was considering marriage with him but I can't help but compare the feelings to being with him long term to my ex. We have very little in common, he is grumpy, he speaks down to me quite a bit and thinks things about me which are just not true.
I don't know what I expect to happen, if anything, with my ex. In some ways I can see us being together, but for the sake of more gossip and my head being in a good place, I can't imagine it would be for a while. When we first broke up, he started seeing someone casually for a while but it didn't even affect me THAT much. Now, I couldn't imagine what I would be like if I seen him with someone else.
I cannot stop thinking about him. Should I tell him?