Hi guys, just joined because I really need some advise, and can't ask anyone I know for obvious reasons. So let me start from the beginning with this story.
When I was in High School a few years ago, I fell in love with a girl who was dating my best friend. They broke up after 9 months of dating, and she turned to me for advise looking for a friend. I always wanted more, but she was my best friends ex, so I never told her how I felt. That lasted through my entire junior year, and in the senior year she moved on to a new group of friends and I stayed with mine. It hurt that I never got to see her anymore, but even when I tried to hang out with her, I never really fit into her group. So senior year passed and we moved on.
It was that summer that I met the girl I've been dating for almost 4 years now, and we plan on being together forever. The problem is, every so often something happens that triggers that old spark to become an ember once again. Ive only seen this girl once in the whole time I've been out of high school, but her memory just will not let me be. I gave her my heart once, and it feels like she still has a piece of it she carries with her.
This hurts. Maybe it's regret that I never told her. I am happy with my partner right now, but I don't know, I just can't seem to let it be even though I'm really trying to move on with my life.
So can someone tell me, does the flame of love ever truly go away? Or will I be plagued by the what-ifs of the past for the rest of my life? How long will I be tortured by my own heart? 10 years? 20? Maybe then will she let me be? Please, if anyone can share their similar experiences, and their outcome, maybe it will put my mind at ease.