Hi everybody, this is my first time posting, I've never posted in any love forum before, and I chose this one because its positive energy and there are some really good people out here that just want to help.
Anyways, here's the story (i'll try to keep it short). My girlfriend dumped me in the beginning of spring break, her reasons were that (had to dig most of them out of her) that she's tired of me, wants to see whats out there, and she likes this other guy. SHe tells me its her, not me and that i've been the best (first) boyfriend in the world. She always told me that she loves me, wants to be with me forever and raise a family with me, and she means it. For the rest of spring break I tried to get her to reconsider, but she wouldn't budge, so I promised her and myself I would stop trying at the end of the break.
Well after the end of the break, my denial stage was over and i started to transfer into the acceptance. When I talked to her I know longer ask her to come back, just to understand why she did. She told me she wanted to get back with me later, but you know what? I told her that I wouldn't if she stayed with him, and she did. A couple of weeks later, they break up (she said it was mutual) and the boyfriend told her that he really, really liked her, just that he had some other girls on his mind. Oh ya, before this I told her I wouldn't get back with b/c that would make me plan b you know? She was trying to make it work with this guy, and if everything when fine, she wasn't coming back, ONLY if something messed up. I wasn't going to lower myself to that level just to be with her.
And by the way, I LOVE this girl. I love her more than anything and would do anything for her. Anyways, after wards we talked and she told me she was single. But then I got out of her why she really broke up with me, it was just so she could get with that other guy. She thought that I would take her back b/c she thought she had me around her finger. This crused me, now she's telling me she misses me and wants me back. She said she got a taste of her own medicine and she is so sorry for what she did and that it was ****ed up. I told her this "You don't deserve me, I deserve a girl who will treat me like I treat her. And the only way we're getting together, is if you convince me that you are that girl." I said. She tells me she loves me and she won't ever do that again. She's a strong girl, she's not begging. SHe told me that she would try and get me back in August, and her "reason" was that so I can see whats out there and all that.
BY the way, when I acted all tough was just a mask I put on, I really do want to be with her and want to believe all I'm saying is true.. But I need to be strong. She's also talking about seeing me during the summer and fooling around (we go to different schools and used to see each other on weekends). I dont know what to do! I don't know if I should take her back, or if i don't I feel like I'm going to regret it forever and be thinking that maybe she did really change. It was yesterday that she told me why she really broke up with me...to be with that other guy, and all that conversation happened last night. We talked today, and were pretty happy, but I'm always happy around her, and sometimes when I call her on the edge of crying and bout to tell her I'm moving on, I hang up with a smile on my face and ending up not telling her. What should I do? What should say? Help please