I really dont understand the situation I'm in.
This girl and I met about 1 and a half months ago, so 6 weeks ago. Every single weekend since then we have met up and got closer and closer.
We both get along really well and enjoy spending alone time with each other.
In the 2nd week she said that we are 'friends with benefits' and I didnt have a problem with that until we started hanging out more.
On the 2nd weekend of meeting we were making out together and getting very cuddly, continuously touching each other.
On the 3rd weekend we had sex and it has continued since then.
Every weekend since then we have hanged out with each other, gone to the mall, talked, then she usually comes to mine to watch a movie and it goes on from there.
We share things with each other that you wouldnt normally tell other people, and she is always giving me really strong body language and cant keep from touching me.
Anyway after 6 weeks in I told her that I think this friendship was moving further than 'friends with benefits', she said she realised that when I held her hand in the club on a night out making it sound as if its my fault it was moving more than 'friends with benefits'.
We had a conversation about it (on facebook because we cant see each other during the week due to work etc) and i asked her what her feelings were towards me, she said 'She really likes me but not more than a friend' which actually shocked me. Because over the past few weeks her attitude and emotions towards me have changed allot:
- she would sit on my lap while hanging out leaning her head back on my shoulder
- kissing my cheek out of no where
- hugging me from behind when watching the computer
- worrying if I got home safe after a night out
- flirting more often
- grabbing me around the waist, looking into my eyes, then we start kissing whilst walking through the city
- and her body language changed dramatically in the last 2 weeks, no matter what we are doing she will find a way to touch me (for example sitting on a seat in the park she will put her legs on mine, lightly punching me, ALWAYS bumping into me while walking somewhere while making light hand contact)
- and in the club while guys were hittting on her she would always look at me like she had no interest in the guy and wanted me to save her, and after any guy would hit on her she would put her arms around me and kiss me as if showing me she is only thinking of me
-also the way she looks into my eyes, its as if she is starting into my soul. She never looked at me in this way at the start, i dont really know how to explain it but its an amazing thing
and after all this I thought that she would have feelings for me, but during the conversation she continually repeated that "I cant change her opinion" and "she likes me as a friend and nothing more"
She said that we should stop the kissing because we will get to close, we should just hang out, have good conversations and have fun. She would then say that "she shouldn't of done any intimate things with me because she knew that I wouldn't be able to handle my emotions during this friends with benefits". Making it sound like its my ****en fault that I have emotions, look at what she was doing.
I just have no idea how a girl can act like that, show affection, be that close and everything else then say 'I only like you as a friend and nothing more'. I try to believe what she says but the way she looks into my eyes when we hang out tells a different story (i know that might sound weird, but i can seriously see something different to what she says when she looks into my eyes)
WHAT THE **** IS GOING ON?
Any advice would be great.