I'm having some tough issues with my relationship right now... I came here in search of help because I'm lost and can't seem to figure it out on my own. First I think I should give some background information. My girlfriend and I have been dating for 3 months now, although we've known each other for a year and a half. We're both 20 years old. She friendzoned me until recently, when I decided to give it one last shot, and we finally began dating. Our relationship has flourished since then, and by now she truly and honestly loves me unconditionally, and she's done nothing wrong, literally. Every man's dream, right? For some reason I'm having issues and I can't figure it out.
The first two months of our relationship were great, before I started having issues of my own. I was living the dream, because I completely conquered the friendzone and landed the girl of my dreams... I've even written a few songs about her and performed them to her... Now I get anxiety about our relationship, and I can't figure it out. It's so bad that it causes me to feel like I should pull away from her, maybe break up with her, and it scares the hell out of me. It even interrupts my sex drive and ability to get in the mood sometimes. I'll say right now that this should not be happening because she's extremely attractive. I'm not just saying this, she really is a 10. She's more attractive than me, and out my league I'd say, physically. She's smart too, which doesn't usually go hand in hand. She loves me unconditionally by now (and said it's the best relationship she's had in her life), and she always wants to have sex. She's attached to me but not controlling, the long-term emotional aspect is there for her, she does cute things for me, she's as loyal as a golden retriever, and she said she'd be happy if she could spend every day of her life with me... I feel like I'm super lucky and that most guys would kill to be in my situation.
I get anxiety to the point where I consider breaking up with her to stop it. Then I feel trapped, because I know it would be ruining a situation in life that is so extremely rare to even happen, and might not ever happen again. The extremely beautiful, intelligent girl who previously friendzoned me is now in love with me and says I'm the center of her world... Then there's the aspect that I would be leaving her extremely heartbroken. As far as she's concerned, I'm the one. Although she isn't rushing for marriage or anything. I have to say, the last thing I expected was for her to become this attached to me. And that might be what's causing my anxiety about our relationship, but I don't know for sure. I don't feel like I should feel this way, because she's technically done nothing wrong.
It's so strange to me that her level of attachment might be causing me to push her away. It's like my brain is sabotaging a perfectly good relationship. Before I started having these issues, I've been completely crazy over her. A theory of mine is that I'm having trouble coping with being wanted so much. It's safe to say that she is more attached to me than I am to her, even though this is the farthest I've ever been in a relationship and I've never loved anyone as much as I love her. Maybe my defense mechanisms are reacting to a big change in my life. These feelings are new to me, and I guess I don't always understand them (or else I wouldn't be here asking for help).
I'm hoping this is a phase, because I want to be able to love her like I did before I started having these issues. It really bothers me that it's affecting my sex drive, when she is the most beautiful woman I've met, and I have no attraction for anyone else.
Ideally, I want to be able to resolve these issues I'm having, and go back to an awesome relationship with her. I feel like breaking up with her would make things feel much worse... I would be so grateful for help with this. You are good people for devoting time to a forum like this.