You can read another post I wrote about a month ago, soon after I had to move out from our place. I didn't know whether it was worth still trying or not. The other thing too, Is that I don't think it is just infatuation. I know a lot of other men that have wanted me, none that aren't worthwhile but I never cared for any of them in that way and they are still my friends. This guy is like almost my tailor made match. We like the same things, we are in the same field of work, we both expect the same things in a relationship and have very similar personalities and sense of humour, but I know I can't do anything about that, I just don't know how to spend time with him and look him in the face when I feel like this.
Also neither one of us is married, but we both have relationships that we handle and call marriages. I call my partner my husband and he calls me his wife, the same for the other man