Hi guys,
I've been reading this forum recently. My fiance and I were together for five years. I am 27 and she is 24. and engaged for 1. We had wonderful plans. Getting married. Having children. We had picked out the names of the children and how we would raise them. There was love. It wasn't perfect. There were fights and squabbles. But we always made up. Then three weeks ago she says she wants to take a break. I respected her decision. Then on Sunday, she calls me and tell me the news:
She doesn't want to be with me anymore.
I've never felt a feeling like this before. I felt like the breath had been taken from my lungs. I had been so afraid to hear those words. I love this girl more deeply than I have ever loved anything in this world before. Words just cannot describe the feeling of despair and sadness that I felt. So here I am: I feel anger, sadness, guilt all throughout the day in these terrible cycles. I reach out to friends but they can only help so much. Their kind words soothe me for the moment. But then the feelings come back. I love this girl. I love her more than anything on earth.
Sorry if it what I wrote read like a rant. I just need some kind of outlet. Five years is a long time. I thought we'd be together for the rest of our lives.
Yet, here we are.