Hi Everyone
So I've been friends with this guy for ten years. We have a great time when we hang out, and him and I have a lot in common. It wasn't untill a few years into our friendship that I knew I had strong feelings for him. I tried to tell him numerous times, but i couldn't never muster up the courage. Not to mention..anytime I was ready to tell him, he would be in a relationship.
About a month ago, I had a weird experience happen. I don't remember dreaming anything that night. I was asleep, when a voice screamed in my head that he was breaking up with his girlfriend. It was so loud that I jumped out of bed, and kinda freaked me out. A few weeks after this incident, I started hearing about how he was having problems with his current girlfriend.
So a few days ago, my friend and I went and had a few drinks. He told me what was going on with his girlfriend. So after having a few and having a few laughs with friends, he drives me home. I told him not to be discouraged by his situation, and that he's a better guy than he thinks he is. I don't know what posessed me to do it, but I just told him everything. I told him that I know he's a good guy because for the longest time, I had a crush on him. Then I said "if you want me to be really honest..I still do have a crush on him." He missed the turning streets to my neighborhood! I knew then he was shocked. To kinda lessen the awkward ness.. I told him that I value our friendship, and that even though it's a very nice thought, I value our friendship and I can't imagine life without him in it as my friend. He assured me that him and I would always be friends, but I still felt scared. He dropped me off, and I told him I would talk with him when I get back from my trip. (i leave in a few hours)
So this evening, I got a text message from him. He said "so I hope you have a safe fun filled trip. Go find yourself a classy guy." When i read that, I got sad, and my heart ached a little thinking that I messed up. I told him "thanks and that classy guys were overrated".
Did I do the right thing? or did I mess up my chance to be with him? I will always love him as my friend, but I want him as something more in my life. Can anyone help with some advice? Thanks!!