This is really eating me up to be honest, I'm opinion seeking on what went wrong, because I'm confused to say the least.
Let me give you a little back story: I was seeing a girl who's been a long term friend, I got drunk & "cheated" on her, she was upset but we worked it out and started seeing each other again, I later find out that she's planning on leaving the country for the summer.
(The word cheated is in quotation marks, as it wasn't cheating in truest sense of the word, or anywhere close to it even)
Now for the next chapter of the "story".
After I found out about her leaving for the summer, it seemed to me like the only thing to do was to ask her if she saw our relationship going anywhere. I still had a couple of weeks left so I put it off for the moment. Things were going fine, we'd talk on the phone most days and she'd keep me up long into the night with text messages. I didn't think much about it at the time but, in retrospect, I thought she was being a little clingy. I went out at the weekend, it was the first night we would both be out drinking since I "cheated" as I'd usually just go out drinking with the lads. I went with my friends and she went with hers, for geographical convenience. When we got there we all met up, but here's the kicker - she doesn't even acknowledge me, like at all, not even a hi. As you can imagine I'm fairly confused at this point. I kick on with the night anyway and get a few drinks down, with a "we'll see what happens later" kind of attitude. A few in the group were making some harmless jokes about the two of us, all in good fun, but I could see she wasn't all that comfortable. About half way through the night she disappears, which I later find out is something to do with me. I ask her friends what the deal is, they're reluctant to talk since she apparently told them not to. Eventually I got it out of them. They said, that she said that her and I are finished and she feels bad about leading me on. Here's the root of my confusion.
For her to be "leading me on", I'd have to want her more than she wants me though, right? Not to sound arrogant, but I can promise you that this definitely wasn't, isn't and never has been the case. She was the one who "liked" me for several years before anything happened. She was the one who'd ask me to do shots and dance with her every time we'd go out. She was the one that kissed me first. She was the one that instigated the relationship. If anything, although I did like her, I was the one leading her on. I "cheated" on her, but she led me on... Yeah, good one .
I probably seem bitter, or angry even and, to tell you the truth, I am and I think I have every right to be. She hadn't got the tact or the class to speak to me face to face, heck she could've even gotten one of her friends to say something to me if she couldn't face me. She didn't though, she ignored me and hoped I just go away, which to be fair kind of worked as I haven't spoken to her since and don't plan on doing so anytime soon. She showed herself for what she really is, a child (Mentality wise I mean, she's not literally a child, although that would be a good twist for like a short story or even a novel, wouldn't it? I know what I'm doing when I'm done here) and to be honest, I want nothing more to do with her. I genuinely couldn't care less that we're finished, plenty more fish in the sea and all that, it's just the fact that it came so far out of left field that's left me, for lack of a better word, bewildered.