So to give you some back ground information, We're both 18 and graduated High School Class of 2012.

We knew each other all through highschool but started talking junior year( Oct 2010). She was kinda known for sleeping around so I was kind of ashamed of her. Our feelings grew strong for each other and all she wanted to do was be my girlfriend ( Keep in mind she is a 10/10 and I'm about a 6.5-7.5/10) and I couldnt accept her because she was a "slut" she claims she wasnt & that everything was bs that people made up about her but everyday it was something different from people "Oh she did this, she did that, she ****** him... etc" and I was a virgin @ the time and told her I didnt want to lose my virginity to her because I dont feel like it would be special enough. Anyways, Through all our bullshit I grew to not trust her because People would tell me stuff and sometimes with proof and when I confront her about it she would lie. This guy that was her bestfriend I always knew something was going on but she always denied it. We were always on and off, on and off with each other because it was always either her hearing something about me or me hearing something about her. at our school not many people like me or her so ... they didnt want to see us together and happy. regardless we stopped talking in about feb of 2011 and she got with her bestfriend after that ( What a coincidence... I Said if I felt something was going on with you two and then after us you end up with him, it means something was going on) anyways... we always have been on and off after that, I lost my virginity in march 2011 and after that I had sex with this girl twice, and shes honestly the best ive ever had. I always told her in highschool that maybe her and I can try this again when we graduate and not many people will be in our business. we both hurt each other real bad and now were at the point that shes back in my life again. She text me 2 weeks ago and we have been hanging out like 5 times a week since then... like I havnt hung out with my guy friends in a while unless she is there... which I'm cool with cause shes a cool girl and I like being around her. Only issue is my feelings are starting to come back. Now as of Feb of 2013 she became a lesbian -,- she had a girlfriend and they broke up like last month. I told this girl that theres no way in hell I can be just friends with you ( Trey songz - cant be friends ) I told her it hurts me to be friends with her because all I want to do is have the old her back. I just miss her love and her kisses and everything about her. I miss holding her hand etc. I asked her to tell me straight up if "Us" Is done forever and she said idk I can tell the future I said I need an answer because I'm not going to sit here and but my emotions on stand by for you. I told her I cant be just friends with her because it hurts me. If shes not in my life im fine ( prior to these 2 weeks we hadnt talked for like 3 months and she hardly even crossed my mind ) its just being with her all the time makes me miss her. I spend the night at her house twice since then and we didnt have sex or anything but we slept in the same bed and I kinda undressed her top half and gave her a massage and basically what im sayingis that not stuff that "JUST FRIENDS" do. anyways I told her either LOVE ME or LEAVE ME because I cant do it in between. She tells me she still has love for me and that she doesnt want to lose my friendship because no one brings as much happiness to her life as I do bla bla bla and I said then Love me and she said she cant... I said Leave me she said please stay. why is she doing this to me and why wont she love me again? She says she has love for me and I say then if you do why do you hurt me, just let me go so I wont hurt any more.... I feel like she just likes the attention but doesnt exactly want to return the favor. we always flirt with each other too. I asked her why she wouldnt give us a try again and she said because she doesnt want to be physical with a guy. I said why and she said "idk I just dont like what comes out the penis, ***" anyways wtf do I do about this situation? I stopped talking to her for one day and she called me that night crying saying she misses me and all this ****. Her and I are perfect for each other and we both can accept that but we believe that we dont belong together. anyways whats your guys opinion on this and what do i do? I've never dealt with a lesbian so it just makes it alot harder. We still tell each other we love each other but in a different way. We say I hate you Instead of saying I love you. but we both know what it means....

anyways, I'm open to all forms of opinion and advice because I feel like my emotions being involved has me blinded and biased to certain things

And dont think of it ask oh thats what you get for not accepting her in the first place because its not even like that, we've done our fair share of emotional damage to each other...
yet we still keep going back

In the end I know whats best for me is I should just stop talking to her and not be friends with her... but I still have hope that she can love me again like she did before so how can I get her back like that.