Hey guys. I'm having some worries about my boyfriend. Please help me and give me your advice. :<
The thing is, he came over last night and I found a little piece of glitter (like, tiny make-up glitter) on his cheek. I brushed it off and showed it to him (though I didn't ask him where it was from) and he said "maybe it's from you?" (though I wasn't wearing make-up at the time). However, I had worn slightly sparkly make-up last weekend while I was staying with him at his house, and thought that maybe some of it had come off on his pillow and that's how it had gotten on his face, but that was quite a few days ago now. Plus, that particular piece of glitter was a little larger and darker than the kind in my make-up (I checked it just a while ago and felt so obsessed and pathetic). In addition to that, he got to my house later than I had expected yesterday, though he had called me (telling me he would be late) and said it was because they were doing construction on the main road to my place and that he had to take another road.
This is not the first time this has happened. A few weeks back, I found a long black hair (I have short brown hair) in his room and it totally freaked me out. No one in his family has long hair. I actually found it on me, on my leg, but I hadn't noticed it before, and as my boyfriend and I had just been cuddling I really started to worry that it had first been on him and had come off on me. When I found it I showed it to him (but didn't accuse him or anything), and he first joked that it was from his other girlfriend, and then said that maybe it was his mom's (but his mom doesn't have long hair!), and that he had no idea how it got there. I said that it was probably from one of his students or another teacher and had fallen on his sports bag at school (he is a PE teacher), and I believed this for a while, but then I really started to worry and stayed worried for a couple of days (I even had a dream that he was cheating on me). However, I finally just decided to trust him and assume that the hair had come from someone at his school.
But this time, the glitter has gotten me all worried again. I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should even be worried about the hair or the glitter or not. I really want to ask him about the glitter but I don't know if I should. I don't want to sound like I'm horribly terribly jealous or that I totally don't trust him or something.
And I don't know if I'm just having these feelings because he's going to another city to take English classes at a university this weekend (I live in Japan and my boyfriend is Japanese), and I feel lonely and abandoned because I'm not going with him this time (I went with him last time, which was actually right after the hair thing happened).
Plus, we have been going out for a year and a half, and are going to move in together next month. He has also been dropping major hints (okay, pretty much telling me) that he is going to propose to me soon. (His family knows this as well and they are very supportive of us getting engaged and living together - I'm basically like part of his family.) The thing is, when I have these kinds of feelings/worries, I worry that I won't be able to accept his proposal honestly. How can I really say "yes" to him if I am worried that he is cheating?
I really love my boyfriend, and having these kinds of feelings really trouble me. Do you think he really might be cheating on me? Should I be concerned? Should I talk to him about it? What should I do?
Please help! I really appreciate any advice or understanding that you can offer. <3