Okay, let me try and run down the situation the best that I can. This girl and I started talking a little over 8 months ago. We had decided to pursue each other because we had feelings for each other. So we began to get closer and things got really intense between us. On January 1st we had out first official "date". There is a catch though. So, when we started talking she was still with her ex-boyfriend. This was about a month and half before our first date and all, and she told me that she had feelings for me like she never did before and that she had found that he just wasn't the one for her in terms of being in a relationship. Actually a week into us talking she had found out the he had lied to her about smoking marijuana for 2 years. He had promised her that he quit for her. Not only that but he lied to her a consistent basis about other things. He was just sneaky and she lost the sense of trust for him ultimately leading to the downfall of their relationship. So, among all of this however she still wanted to be friends with him because he is her childhood friend and they had been friends before they started dating since they were young. I totally understood this from the beginning and have been extremely supportive. In fact, she has told me that she wouldn't have been able to get out of the rut she was being pulled into if I hadn't came along. So, it gets even crazier though. She had broken up with just as she had promised me she would because I know how sticky that can be and I wasn't going to be played as a fool even if I had been so strongly attracted to her. That was a month before our first date but she had liked me or in-least been interested in me for some time before that. But, on March 8th the ex-boyfriend seriously attempted to kill himself. He took his car into a telephone pool on his street at 50 mph. I just happened to be with her at the time she was notified and she was really upset I mean this guy tried to kill himself over her... it's insane. So, our relationship had been made officiated because she was afraid that he would do something again and she would look responsible to everyone in her family for the death of him. She had told me over and over again that she just needs time and is figuring things out before she gets in an official relationship with me. I understand this because she is completely broken. To help understand a little better let me give some examples of what she has said to me:
Okay so on March 4th, I recieved this from her in a little letter. We started talking on a 4th so it was sort of like a anniversary thing.:
"I love you. You never cease to amaze me. Literally! I fall deeper in love with you as each day goes by. I've developed an infatuation for you! Ever since I saw you in the hall that day last year, I've been mesmerized. I adore absolutely everything about you. You're intelligent, spontaneous, a gentlemen, courteous, handsome, musically intact, gallant, and open-minded. You treat me like gold, and you've pulled me out of a rut that I was unfortunately being dragged into. My life would be completely different if it weren't for you. It is impossible to explicated how thankful I am. I would be headed down the wrong road if you wouldn't have came into my life. You saved me. For that, I'm never letting you go. I'll always be by your side, no matter what. Despite any differences we may have, I'll be there. You have made such a large impact on my life, and you challenge me every single day, mentally and physically ... there is a little more but it doesn't matter as much...
But, now we had gotten into an argument two days ago about her not specifically wanting a relationship because of various reason and she texted me this at 4:04 AM, three hours after we got off of skype. -_-. lol
"I've never been treated so well until you came along, despite our several disputes. I'm sorry that i'm incapable of showing how I feel through affection or whatever you expect from me. I'm sorry you consider this being a relationship and I act as if I don't give any **** whatsoever. I'm just really messed up and have trust issues and feel like I don't deserve anyone. If it's not that then I feel like I don't want or need anyone. If it's not that then I feel vulnerable. I'm not making you stay. That's entirely up to you. I've made this so complicated and hard to deal with, I'd understand if you gave up. I just need time to figure everything out, and actually be normal again. I've said this so many times that you'd think I would've had enough time. But the fact that i've done so much with him halts me from doing so, or in-least I think it does. But I want you to know that you do mean a lot to me, and you've proven something to me that no one else has. Whether you stay or not is up to you, I just don't want to lose you completely."
I replied to this in a very supportive way and I also apologized for not considering the depths of the emotional scars she has when judging any aspect of our relationship.
EDIT: There is another text I received a day or so before that text where she said she is sorry she can't explicate how she feels but she does feel all that she said.
So, here is my question. I am in love with this girl, and I honestly believe she is in love with me. I just want to know how to approach things from now on. I mean we do everything as if we are in a relationship she just seems distant emotionally sometimes and we aren't official. I am willing to do what I can. How should I approach the whole situation moving forward?