I'm stuck in between I hate him, I love him he's not a bad person I don't think?

[Anikia]

I've known him for like 3 years almost now, we have been through or sometimes put each other through some bad stuff, some crazy stuff, funny stuff, not funny, angry obscure strange and rage-ful events, things.

Anyway, his friend told me never to make any physical contact with him cause he said he doesn't like me and stuff and that's when he started treating me like I am invisible and then I stopped messing with him but I left one last email on his Facebook saying how I don't like when he calls me invisible and I don't like his friends treating bad I don't know if he got it or not he never replies back on Facebook (to me) and he rarely gets on.

But lately we ride the bus home and he sits all the way in the back all of a sudden now I haven't messed with him in a while but all of sudden he's like at the back of the bus and seems kinda sad he's not sitting with his friend and his friends is just sitting up in the front and talking with us or his other friends but the boy has just been in the back of the bus alone. And I was worried about him and I don't know how he feels or how he feels about me.

But I didn't want to make any assumptions so I made him a card that basically said that I am concerned about him and if there is anything wrong that he has the option to call me if he would like the choice is his of course and he kinda got mad and said this.

Your Running My F****ing Life?

And after he said this I didn't mess with him for like 1-2 weeks , but the real thing I didn't understand was that I haven't been messing with him for like over a month I've been doing good you I just missed him a little and I was concerned and stuff. In those 1-2 weeks we did stare at each other sometimes he kinda look at me and I would look at me from the front of the bus and I just wondered and wondered. Then I thought maybe I the decorative note made him feel l uncomfortable so I decide to wait 1-2 weeks and to see apologize maybe.

He doesn't really like talking to me he has never approached me before he kinda acts like he hates me and wants me to die,and he sometimes even acts like I'm invisible and stuff he kinda of a weird boy he's Chinese-American, he keeps to himself a lot kinda shy and stuff I met him in 7th grade now were in 9th. he just seems to just hate me and no one else I don't know. sometimes though there's like this part of me that feel like he doesn't really hate me but doesn't wanna admit or something.
something just doesn't feel right.

So today for the first time in a long time I went to the back of the bus and tried to apologize and see what happens I get back there and he has head phones on and on his phone and Im trying to talk to him and apologize and he talks about how much he hates me, how I need to leave him a lone and he tells me to this that leave and He's like overreacting and he tries to out of nowhere push me out the seat Im like hold on you gonna give yourself a heart attack just can I talk and Im like trying to be chill stay calm and just kinda talk he starts being that weird person he is and we end up arguing and Im just like.

I haven't messed with him for months and he doesn't even acknowledged it and he says he hates me and so on and I don't slap him or not I just push my palm against his face like an open smack kinda but not hard just kinda medium soft. I was expecting him to slap me back or just to slap me but he didn't he just looked at me and said "Harassment" which of course wasn't true at all.

Then I finally ask him WHY, why does he hate me so much and what did I do to make him hate me and he couldn't even really answer me he was so vague and I haven't been messing with him for awhile so he can't say that Im annoying or anything I think but anyway yeah.

Well towards the end of school few days ago we were on the bus and I was talking to the bus driver and he and his other friends were there and I was talking to him bus driver how I loved and cared about him and my feelings for him and how I care write letters etc. And how it's frustrating sometimes being with him but how I make due.

The boy heard this and I told him that I loved him and he said nothing but up his middle finger towards me and started cursing and whispering to himself. The bus driver said cant he be nice to you and the boy said I'm annoying.

After the confession
All his friends said I embarrassed him angered him
He didn't come to school the last 2 days.
But my mom said maybe I could just be his first love?

[smackie9]

Stop worrying about it and get busy with enjoying your summer off. Maybe you will meet a nice guy that isn't so troubled. You deserve better than this don't you think?

[michelle23]

messing with him? obvious then that you dont deserve him.. sounds like your a game player and hes sick of your bulls**t. do what he says and leave him alone

[smackie9]

Michelle they're kids....they fall in love, then someone gets their heart broken.....life goes on.

If you read the post right, it's about a girl that has a huge crush on a boy that wants nothing to do with her. His friends made fun of him and now he is really upset with her still pawing over him.

[michelle23]

What does she mean by "mess with him" it says it 100 times in there.

[smackie9]

I would say flirting with him. She doesn't take rejection too well.....doesn't get the hint her crush doesn't welcome her attention.

[Anikia]

I would say flirting with him. She doesn't take rejection too well.....doesn't get the hint her crush doesn't welcome her attention.

Hey WAIT A SECOND!?

LET ME CLARIFY SOMETHING TO YOU UNDERLINGS
#1 - I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL FLIRITING IS AND FOR YOUR INFORMATION "SMACKIE9"
ITS NOT THAT I DON't TAKE REJECETION WELL
ME AND HIM HAVE JUST BEEN GOING BACK AND FORTH WITH NO RESOLUTION
SO CAN U PLEASE STOP WITH YOUR ****IN BULL CRAP!

I ASKED FOR SOME ADVICE OR HELP, NOT SOME SELF ABSORBED AND DEMORALIZING
ASSUMPTION AND ACCUSATION!!

[Anikia]

What does she mean by "mess with him" it says it 100 times in there.

By mess with him I mean like just saying Hi, how u doing or asking him something things along those lines srry I have aspergers so my meanings mean different kinda things hehe?
Him and I actually used to be friends.

[Anikia]

messing with him? obvious then that you dont deserve him.. sounds like your a game player and hes sick of your bulls**t. do what he says and leave him alone

Not playing like that , just like talking or asking him things etc.
I don't even know what u mean by game player

[VincenzoG91]

Wait, what? You confided in the bus driver about your love for this boy? While the boy is riding on the same bus and sitting nearby? That's almost as humiliating as if you had pantsed him on the playground. During kickball.

[Anikia]

Wait, what? You confided in the bus driver about your love for this boy? While the boy is riding on the same bus and sitting nearby? That's almost as humiliating as if you had pantsed him on the playground. During kickball.

Well every time I tried to tell him my feelings in private he just shyed away and made up excuses
or he got like really mad and put up his middle finger so I mean yes I did but I didn't mean any harm
After that he he didn't come the last 2 days so yeah I confessed on the bus and he was kinda mad
but some other kids just said aww she really likes you and he just got more mad or embrassed
I'm 15 BTW


He never really responded back to what I said

[smackie9]

Hey WAIT A SECOND!?

LET ME CLARIFY SOMETHING TO YOU UNDERLINGS
#1 - I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HELL FLIRITING IS AND FOR YOUR INFORMATION "SMACKIE9"
ITS NOT THAT I DON't TAKE REJECETION WELL
ME AND HIM HAVE JUST BEEN GOING BACK AND FORTH WITH NO RESOLUTION
SO CAN U PLEASE STOP WITH YOUR ****IN BULL CRAP!

I ASKED FOR SOME ADVICE OR HELP, NOT SOME SELF ABSORBED AND DEMORALIZING
ASSUMPTION AND ACCUSATION!!

Oh give a rest princess. This is a free public forum. We don"t know YOU, we can only GO BY the information stated so STFU!!!

[smackie9]

I feel sorry for the dude...it's no wonder.....

[jennat]

I understand the whole "messing" with him part... It's just you're way of trying to be with him and stay in his life in one way or another... But considering the fact that he has said that he hates you and that his friends have also said that maybe you should just back down, give him some space and go from there... It's not good to be pushy and besides he won't stay mad at you forever since you have obviously been able to keep this friendship going for three years. The only awkward part about this is that you talked to the bus driver about it... Isn't that a conversation you should have with your friends?

[UnderTheMoon]

LOOK LITTLE GIRL! THE BOY SAID TO LEAVE HIM ALONE! HE DOESNT LIKE YOU! AND HOW DARE YOU TALK TO SMACKIE LIKE THAT YOU UNAPPRECIATIVE LITTLE TWAT! SWEET BABY JESUS ON A POPSICLE STICK YOU ARE SO RUDE! YOU WERE BEING DEFENDED AND MORE OR LESS SPIT ON THE PERSON DEFENDING! GROW THE **** UP AND MOVE THE **** ON! AND I WOULD ACT THE SAME WAY IF SOMEONE WAS TOO DAMN CLUELESS TO TAKE A HINT! YOU DESERVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


This girl is a brat and needs to take her shit to some other forum, probably the worse thing I have ever read in my life and so damn daft!