Long story short.. My ex boyfriend and I dated only 10 months and broke up in February. Our relationship was very toxic although there were good times when we were at home with my son...never when we were at bars or out. I would consider him jealous, controlling and opinionated. He would go through my phone and computer. He started getting verbally abusive calling me the "c" word or w*ore. I was always to blame in his eyes and even to this day he says everything was my fault. One time he did throw me to the ground however not sure it was intentional. He has made me feel that I "f'd" everything up. I never cheated although he accused me constantly. I have missed him and not sure if it is the manipulation or what, but I miss him very much which frustrates me because I know he is not good for me. I want to get over him and not sure how I do it. Everytime I speak to him it ends in raging mad texts. I do not want to love him anymore. Any advice? I do not want to beg or plead him.
Any help would be great. Thank you