Hello everyone,
I'm a 17 year old guy and my crush is 16.
I know her from the local scouting group.
I had an eye on her for about a month and my friends pushed me in to asking her out, so the next time after scouting I did. And she said yes!
We would meet at the train station and go to the cinema together, we are both kinda shy so the initial meeting was really awkward.
Nonetheless we had a really good time (of course I paid for pretty much everything except the train costs) and on the way back I got myself to put an arm around her, that's when I made the crucial mistake of trying to kiss her and she refused friendly. (I did apologise for this)
So instead of going for the kiss I gave her a little kiss on the cheek and I think I saw her smile a little.
While riding our bikes home she invited me for a drink at her place, of course I would go!
I met her father and made a good impression according to her, and three days later I asked if she wanted to go out with me again. And she said yes again.
In the meantime we had multiple conversations over Whatsapp that would go on for more than an hour. And I couldn't stop thinking about her.
So two weeks later I went to pick her up and we went to the beach together, I had a wonderful day but it felt as if it was more as friends because of little things like: we would sit next to each other, but with a considerable amount of distance in between us. And I thought to myself that asking her to be my girlfriend now would be a bad idea because we obviously need more time.
So after that we rode our bikes to the ice cream shop and I bought a cone for her and myself. We ate it at the nearby park on a bench together.
She thanked me for the ice cream and we would go to her place to play on the Wii or whatever.
On the way back I explained to her that I had a really shit last two weeks (school and work related) and that I was very happy that she would go out with me again.
That's when she suddenly stopped and the conversation went into all serious mode.
''You are a really nice guy, really. But I just don't feel anything for you. Let's just be friends''
Heartbroken I went home and cried for a considerable time (and the last time I really cried was 8 years ago because my grandpa died, I don't cry that fast)
It is summer brake so there was literally no one I could talk to so instead of dealing with it, I made the stupid decision to contact her over whatsapp saying how sorry I was for all the things I didn't do and didn't say, making desperate moves I shouldn't have. All the piled up emotions from the last two weeks just exploded let's say.
She being so sweet sat through all of that and saying how it wasn't my fault. She felt really bad for me.
The next day I went to apologise for my outbreak via whatsapp, and thank her for sitting through all that, and she said that she totally understood me.
Her dad said to her that what wasn't there yet, perhaps will come later.
That and she just had a terrible break up for the stupidest reason ever that she had not totally come over yet.
So we made up and decided that we could try to get to know each other better. As friends.
She is coming over next Thursday and I really don't know what to do... Obviously I really do love her. I gave her compliments on how she looked and numerous times on how sweet she is.
I understand that possibly she will never feel anything for me, but I want to do everything in my power to make it happen!
I don't know what else I can do besides just being nice and myself... I made her laugh multiple times so humour is present.
Seeing as she is so sweet and she really digs cutesy stuff I prepared some cute games we can play (on PC).
Thanks for sitting through that enormous wall of text and I look forward to reading your replies!