Currently, I'm in between letting go, and still wanting atleast some sort of sign.
Not necessarily a sign that she likes me the same way.
See, she has been distant, and IDK if it's because she feels the vibe that I like her, maybe it's my face. IDK if I have the look of someone expecting something. She seems distant and close with a another friend(talking to him like she use to with me).
We said we were friends, and I guess it was cool because I just wanted the chance to know her first. But maybe I should have been honest about me feelings. My dumbass trying to respect her boundaries. But that's what I'm suppose to do right? So ya, I've been lying to myself, saying it's cool to be friends.
But honestly, I didn't become friends to get with her. I vowed to not fall for co workers. But sometimes, there's that girl that you wish you never worked with and met somewhere else. THe fact that we work together is the main reason I didn't fully open up with her. Was she really waiting like my friend said?
Should I just open up and tell her? How? She's been distant lately, and IDK why. I want to talk to her about it and ask her if there's anything I did or said. And not in a confrontational way. Our friendship just seems so short lived, and only hung out once. I just hope for a 2nd chance. I just want to clear the air with her.
IDK if that would help me let go. IDK if that would bring her back. Women always seem to be 100% certain, especially when deserting a friend.
I haven't had someone that I can open up to and trust for a long time. Woman I was cool with before destroyed that after she used me. And I'm afraid of that happening again. And I admit that i have been withdrawn myself because I probably over-analyze this girl and she may notice that and think maybe I was fake.
She's a good friend, and there is a point in being friends because if we were not friends first, it would be easier to let go. But I don't want it to end, not like this. I feel lost and angry at myself because I feel that it's my fault, I either did, or didn't do something. IDK how I should talk to her, I really just want the oppourtinity to talk. I'm tired of texting, I'm tired of holding things in and never getting a chance. Doesn't help that our schedules have changed and I only see her once a week for a brief time.