Ill start off with some info to start off (sorry it turned out to be long) .. Her and I dated for a bit more than 2 and a half years and it was the first long and serious relationship for both of us. We were happy for pretty much the whole relationship, maybe like 80 percent of it. I helped her get through some very tough times in the beginning of our relationship, then things were good, we were happy for the most part, loved each other so much, and overcame most obstacles. Then almost two years in she met a guy and they became friends. I accepted that but I had a feeling that he liked her. I asked her nicely to stop talking to him and explained how i felt. She did but then a month or so later they started talking again and eventually he texted me saying a lot of nasty stuff towards me, most likely because he was very jealous of me, at that point i was sure he liked her. My GF got mad at him and they didn't talk for 3 months or so. Then once again they started talking and she told me she kind of liked him.
At that point in the relationship we were having some problems and i didn't realize some were that big, i didn't compliment her much, said hey not her name (like hey what do you want to do today, hey whats your favorite color, instead of her name), i didn't show her i loved her enough, and at the time we weren't seeing each other much maybe once a week twice sometimes (and of course she had some flaws as well). She then broke up with me. During the next two weeks she was trying to talk to me, was saying she missed me, and wanted to call me. I regret it now but i was trying to distract my self from it all and didn't tell her i missed her and didnt call her and in a way pushed her away a bit. Two weeks passed and she started dating the guy i told you about earlier ( BTW she never cheated on my physically).
After two weeks of not talking at all i was not distracted and alone for a few days i resisted urges to talk to her as she was in my mind non stop but on the third day i decided to text her. She was fine with it and we texted casually, i asked how her new BF is and she said some very nice things about him and that she is great. Later on we were just talking and she asked if i miss her i said ya and she said she does too and that she thinks of us. The next day we were texting again and at night she asked if i want to call and she asked a couple times and i said ok. We ended up talking for 4 hours.. Just casually, about the past, our feelings and all. The next day in the morning we talking for another 2 hours and talking was great. She told me she still loves me and i told her i do too and we both miss each other. She also told me im more attractive than her new BF and more attractive than before and also said she regrets breaking up with me. I texted her after, saying that talking like that took me to a nice place as if nothing happened and it was really nice and she said she felt the same way..
We had to stop talking because she was hanging out with her new BF for the day. I called later at night and she had a whole different attitude. She was nothing like the past phone calls and didn't want to talk. So we stopped and it hurt me. The next day i couldn't take it and sent her a long message about how i still love her so much, miss her so much, would forgive her for her flaws and dating this guy, and that i would change because i realize i might have taken what we had for granted a bit and know what we had was special and would change myself to have that happiness and the girl i love back in my life and that i think it would work out. In the end of it i asked if she could reconsider and maybe take us back or just see each other one day for a few hours. She said she doesn't know right now and she kept saying that. Later at night we talked on the phone and she was once again not like the first phone calls but i could tell a part off her really wanted me back as she was saying and asking things indicating shes interested in going back to us. She was also saying that she thinks its too late to get back together ( of course i said we would take it slow now just jump back in in one day) but if it was 2 weeks ago she would have reconsidered and a month ago she surely would have taken me back she told me ( they have been together a month now and 6 weeks since our breakup). She also said she thinks it wouldnt be the same, ( i told her we could make it even better than before because we can fix the bad things and start anew in a way) that she doesn't want to take a chance, and then in the end she said shes happy at the moment ( but then why is she saying all that stuff that she regrets it and misses me,loves me, or is it just because shes in the honeymoon stage)and said we cant talk anymore so i just asked because why not, if we could see each other one day for a few hours just as friends and she said maybe and then we said goodbye..
I'm just confused as to what she is REALLY feeling and what i could do to get her back because i really think our relationship would be even better than before in time and that it would work out and i want to do this because i still love her and because of everything she told me or else i wouldn't be trying like this. I'm confused if her relationship is a rebound or not, i mean 2 weeks after we breakup shes with him but then again she kind of liked him before. I am also unsure why she told me she loves me,misses me so much, and regrets it but later tells me its too late to go back. I really want to make it right and get her back and reignite that spark, im just confused as to how i should do it. I think NC will just make her get over me quicker and get deeper into her new relationship and i don't really want to take that chance.. I was thinking of NC for two weeks and then texting her asking how shes been and then asking if she would want to meet up for a bit as friends. But my goal would be to act happy, fun, show her ive changed by calling her by her name and complimenting her but showing i love her i mean i cant show that unless we got back together , and MAYBE sing "our" song I'm yours together as she always wanted me to sing in front of her but i was to scared but only if it goes well, and then leave after a bit and wait for her to contact me and hopefully that meet up could reignite a spark or make her miss me more and possibly start wanting me because i know just being friends wont work as it will make her feel good and hurt me. I just want some advice as to what i should do to get my love back and how she is REALLY feeling.
Thank you if you can try to help me out and if you read that all i realize its really long, I appreciate it