Ok, here goes ...
Met this man 2 months ago thru chat. The 1st meeting was good. I was immediately drawn to him. He too consistently contact me after our first meeting. After that we went for movies, dinner, the normal dating stuff till one day while in the movies, he held my hand ... it was wonderful.
Then my insecurity kicks in. I start to question him what does he really want from this ? He said he does like me and enjoy my company. But he don't dare to promise me anything as he don't want to hurt me. So just go with the flow and see how things go. Ok fine.
So far I really appreciate that he is always punctual for our date and even if he is a bit late, he will inform me.
Whenever I asked him out for dinner, on the spot he will come. No pre-arrangement and he still shows up.
On our first few dates, he did irritate me and I showed him that I was unhappy and yet, he still stick with me.
Last week, I was upset that he was goofing around when I said I want to see more of him. I start to blast him thru text, at that moment I was thinking this is it ... he won't see me anymore ... but after I finished bombarding him, I asked "do you still wanna see me ?" he said of course ....
So on the same day, he said he will come to my place at 7pm and I was suprised to see him arriving 20 minutes earlier !!
We had our talk ... I told him I was taking a risk in telling him how upset I was and I didn't expect that he will still see me. He said of course I will still see you because what we have now is already a bond. Only thing is he is not ready to commit. Frankly speaking he has been divorced twice so ... I guess he is really being very careful .... besides, I have been going thru articles and articles that can be found online on how man don't fall in love like woman do. It takes more time for man to fall in love .....
Another "actions" from him that suprised me, we normally go out on movie/dinner dates on saturdays so last saturday I was not able to see him as a friend is in town. But my friend was not able to meet me on saturday as he arrived late. But I decided not to look for my guy as I feel I need to spend sometime on my own too. Then at nite, when I checked my FB, I was amused to see that he liked so many of my pics and links on my page ... up to year 2012 !! gosh ... he must be thinking of me a lot !!
The next day when I meet him ... I didn't tell him about the FB thing but he did say he felt a bit jealous coz he thought I was out on a date, having fun and didn't even text him !! owwwhh .... I hug him for being so cute ... haha ....
Few days back I text him to tell him that I was not feeling well, he said take a rest then and later he will drop by to bring me out for dinner ... I was touched.
I still feel insecure coz he keeps on telling me that he is not able to feel anything at this moment. He even joked that he felt rusty when it comes to feelings. I know 2 months is too soon for him to feel intense feelings for me so I am gonna give it a few months and see how it goes ...
In the meantime .... what do you guys think ??