I would imagine this would be a popular question, but I really need advice.
I think my boyfriend watches porn before I get home from work (we live together). When I get home his computer charging light is on, and there have been a few other clues, but that is the one that I mainly notice. He says he never uses the computer anymore (I don’t ask he has just said this) but I can obviously see that he does. The light is never on any other time. We have only lived together a few months and to be honest this is the best relationship and he will be the one. I am 34 and know what’s right and what’s not for me finally. I just have this issue with porn. I guess I should explain why I ever notice the light. My ex, who I was with for 4 years was pretty much addicted although he would never admit. But he admitted he watched it after work to relax and I caught him some other times (left tissue near the computer, etc.) He also never wanted to have sex with me, seemed to prefer porn and had tons of old VHS tapes, dvds, etc, heck I even saw porn stars names written down on a notepad near his computer when we first started dating (this is all my ex, not current boyfriend)
Is this something I am worrying about for nothing? I am extra sensitive and paranoid because of the situation with my ex. I don’t want my current boyfriend to prefer porn and not me. But…is this something worth bringing up? I mean I know I will sound crazy when I say oh I see your computer is charging so you must have been using it, why do you say you don’t use it and were you watching porn. I don’t want it to get uncomfortable in our relationship and I don’t want him to lie, but unfortunately I am overly observant, and perhaps paranoid. Does a guy watching porn mean he doesn’t think you are hot enough and he is not attracted to you, I have heard all the answers before but I’d like to hear from some real guys about this. I’ll also admit my self-esteem is not that high so maybe this is also why I am constantly worrying