Rattled!!! Do I have the right to be?
Soo my bf and I have been through a lot lately, many of you already know. Pretty much, I have been supporting him all summer, as he has been unable to hold down a job for longer than 2 weeks. He also failed a couple of his classes last year and has to take an extra year, which pisses me off because I want to go back to school too, in another city, and I have to wait for him to graduate before doing this. Anyways, he is starting school in a week and he is getting a student loan (last year he got free funding through a program called "second careers", but can't keep getting it because he failed) and he is giving me a big chunk of it to put towards his half of rent from here until January (the money comes out of my account every month). ALL SUMMER I have been paying rent on my own, paying the internet bill on my own, AND paying for us to do fun activities like go to the beach and go to water parks, and camping, etc. Throughout this time he would give me money here and there, and buy groceries. This does not add up to EQUAL at all! Anyways, we took a break recently because I was fed up with all this and was holding a lot of resentment towards him. When I came home (after being at my moms for a few days) I agreed to let him prove himself and prove that he can act like a mature adult (he is 26). So last night he tells me out of no where that when he gives me the $2000 for his share of rent for the next 5 months, he wants a receipt!!! Now in NORMAL circumstances I would not have an issue with this, but we are not in a normal situation. I couldn't believe he had the audacity to ask me! His reasoning was "after everything we just went through, I need to protect myself" as in, in case I take the money and run. *rolling my eyes* Are you fvcking kidding me?! I have been the one supporting him all fvcking summer and throwing my fvcking money pretty much in his face! And all of a sudden he doesn't trust that I'm actually going to act like a responsible adult with his(my) money??? I am so thrown by this, and seriously pissed! Like I said, if we were in a normal situation, and had been splitting all the bills 50/50 all summer, then I really wouldn't have a problem with this, I just can't get over the fact that he doesn't trust me with this. In all reality, he is bad with money, so I should be the one taking ALL his student loan, and letting him use when he needs it, so he doesn't freaking blow it on all kinds of garbage! Urgh!!! Am I out of line being upset?
May the wind always be at your back and the sun upon your face. And may the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars