It is about this guy I posted on here before.
He talked to me every single day until I was hooked.
He would give me compliments all the time, pet names only, throwing marriage and being his one day – comments, missing me and thinking of me all the time.
Never deep conversation but when it came to sex talk – he had all time in the world. He said he can’t wait to see me and my smile.
I told him I want to see him too and I played a role in his dirty talk. Later on, I asked if he would want to see me if there was no sex involved. He said yes. But with time, he did not talk to me as often as he did and would leave in the middle of chat or just ignore whatever I asked.
When I said something has change, he reassured me that everything is fine and he still loves talking to me. His words hardly matched his actions.
He was deployed this whole time and told me that he will call me first thing when he gets home. It has been couple days and nothing. He did not even bother to reply my questions on fb I sent yesterday.
I feel like a fool. I can’t stop thinking why he won’t read or reply to me because we were OK last time we talked. He is online all the time. I really feel sad and miserable. And worst part is- I knew it was not real-real, yet I already care for him.
Now I am thinking about deactivating my FB account to get him out of my mind. But before I do that, I want to tell him that even though I did say things, I would never be anybody’s one night stand or sleep with someone who I hardly know and I want him to know that. I value myself more than that. I guess that is closure I need in order to let go. Should I tell him that? Would it ever matter to him? I wish I could ask why he played with me a pretended everything.