>Has she given you any indication that she would consider a reconciliation?
>Have you approached her to take her out to dinner or something that would show her that you're clinging to your memories of her?
>Has she gotten a new love in her life? It's been 5 years.
>Have you taken any steps at all to get to the stage of acceptance that this relationship is over or have you just kept your hope going to the point that you've not even really accepted that its over yet and so you've done zero moving on?
Don't buy her any gifts. In my opinion, that will burden her with YOUR feelings but in no way will it indear you to her. You have to show her in tangible actions that you are not the man who you once were. The man that wanted he freedom over his family. First you have to see if she'll let you show her and a romantic night out would be the place to start so see if she'll let you do that for her. If she won't, then you HAVE to learn to let go of your unrequieted feelings because there is no sense in you wasting your life pining over someone who is done with you. None whatsoever. There are ways to help you get her out of your mind. You can ask us for some exercising you can do to get on but there is no sense giving them to you now if you're not ready to hear them.
Good luck. Don't waste anymore of your time wasting your time pining over her and doing nothing about getting her back or getting the hell over her.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion