so i went out with this girl months ago...probably like 6....went out for drinks....we were there for like 6 hours...drinking...it was kind of weird...awkward.....but there were laughs...some decent convo
i texted her the next day saying "i hope you had a goodtime" she said "I did"....i asked if maybe shed like to do it again....she said "ya ill get back to you..im real busy with school and work"....and she had mentioned how she was pursuing a masters or something and worked full time when we went out...
so i saw her once randomly at a bar....a few months later....she was with friends or whatever for her birthday....she came over and we chatted for a few mins and did a shot....
last night i was outside a bar smoking....and she had been in there and i noticed her real quick.....when she came out she stopped and came over and gave me a hug and asked if i remembered her....i said of course....she then suggested we should go out again sometime.....im not even sure how the rest of the convo went as i was pretty drunk.....i know most girls like to be pursued...im not always that aggressive.....but i had generally passed it off as her not being very interested after the initial date thing...
today i was looking for something in an old drawer i rarely use...in the corner of it i found an old card from my ex....it was a card from around thanksgiving(around a year and half into our relationship) she had sent me from her parents a few days before i was coming there to stay for a long thanksgiving weekend.....the front of it has a huge piece of pumpkin pie on a plate with a fork on it and says "you are the whipped cream on my pumpkin pie" with a great message inside about how she was so excited and couldnt wait to see me and some of the sweetest things...i teared up.....i spent so much time at first thinking about how bad she was sometimes...and in the end it cost me a friendship i still wanted....but i couldnt get over some things and never really looked at myself and my mistakes...it made me remember how special and good i used to feel....and how i blew it by not making her feel the same way all of the time