I'm not sure if I am actually looking for advice here, or maybe just to share stories with fellow romantics like me. But, I would certainly LOVE advice if anybody who has been through this has some advice.
All my life, I have been such a big romantic. A hopeless romantic, even. I am in love with the idea of falling in love. Part of me feels like I was made to be in a relationship.
All the same, I've also always been strangely very grounded and realistic about it. I can have a crush on a girl and still know, in the back of my head, that if I actually got up the nerve to talk to her/ask her out, she could very well be completely nothing like what I thought she was. I can see an attractive girl, and wish I could talk to her, or she'd talk to me, or somehow we'd have one of those crazy romantic moments you see in movies and TV even though you know they don't really happen in real life.... and yet intellectually I still know that she is probably just some random person I will never talk to or even see again.
Even so, my logical side doesn't change the fact that I am such a hopeless romantic. There was a time when I thought I was finally done with all that, and finally able to actually put that part of me to good use. Yeah... well, turns out my "Disney Princess" was actually the Wicked Witch all along. LOL! And, yes I am half-kidding. I DO NOT expect (and quite honestly wouldn't want) to find somebody perfect. Perfect does not exist.
Now that I am finally out of that relationship, and starting to move on, that long buried part of me is starting to come back to life. Honestly... to some degree it is starting to drive me crazy. I hate it! For those of you familiar with the show "How I Met Your Mother" I am practically Ted Mosby. It is like every girl I find attractive, I find myself wishing she'd come up and talk to me, or we'd somehow hit it off and I could ask her out or something. I see some friend of a friend on Facebook or something, and she seems like somebody who has a lot in common with me, and suddenly I find myself wishing I could meet her.
Mind you, I'm not obsessive, or anything. I am very logical about it. But, it still drives me freaking crazy. It is kind of like wanting love so badly on a constant basis only to constantly realize it just ain't gonna happen. Has anybody else been like this? How do you turn it the HELL off?! Some day I would like to meet a girl and fall in love. Find the true girl of my dreams. But, until then couldn't my mind shut the Heck up and stop constantly wanting it to happen?