hey, i joined this so that i can search out for help, i desperately need it, my life is hanging to it
i dont know what do anymore
i love her from all my heart
we are in a real long distance relationship
but it worked like as we were there with each other holding hands.
i went through really bad phase last year, lot of problems hatred and anger consumed me
in those i pushed her away slowly over and over and now she is back with her ex who is also online
earlier she was with him just as a friend
but that made me mad and i went all fighting since that
crying and begging for her to come back,
we both have tried to walk away from each other but it only hurt us even more than staying,
in those tries she has fallen for him, loves him more, more over me and i feel like ive lost her completely, i know ive :'(
and by each passing day she went closer to him and away from me
the more she went away the more i got sad, i know she is the one for me
but now she doesnt love me anymore and i cant live a second without her
ive made sacrifices and accepted whatever she wants now
im just her friend now but i love her like she is my everything and this separation is killing me
ive hurt her over and over and pushed her i know i was wrong and i cant forgive myself
its been over five months since that and ive tried to be a better man ever since proved her on and on
but down the line she feels im pushing her
what shall i do please help