I did the stupid thing and went snooping the other day, for the first time since we broke up. Curiosity got the better of me. I looked at the FB page of the girl he was texting within days of finishing with me, and it says they are in a relationship. What surprised me the most was how I felt... I didn't feel upset, I kind of felt relieved in a strange way. Relieved that I knew what was going on and could stop speculating and then all the bad things about how popped into my head and I actually thought "rather you than me love". Don't get me wrong, I miss the old him (from the beginning) and ill always treasure the memories and experiences (first love and all that) but he wasn't the same at the end of the relationship as he was at the beginning and I think that's what I was 'mourning' over so to speak, the old him and the prospect of definitely not being able to get that back. I feel like it was some kind of break through, like I'd turned a page if that makes sense!