Growing up I’ve had numerous body image issues that have done nothing but hold me back in life. Even now as an adult I’ve yet to be intimate with a guy out of fear of what he’d think about seeing my body. I’m outlining a few of my concerns below and would like to get feedback on if my worries are really justified.
I have PCOS which causes hirsutism, which in a nut shell, is excess hair growth. It disgusts me, but I have hairier than normal areas of my body (legs, arms, butt, belly, etc) which I either have to shave or wax. If I skip a day of shaving my legs they start to feel prickly. As if that’s not bad enough, PCOS also makes it very difficult to have children. I absolutely hate that I have this condition, but at the end of the day I did not ask for it and I don’t feel it should prevent me feeling or experiencing love. I just don’t know what guy in his right mind would want to love a girl with this condition.
Another wonderful symptom of PCOS is obesity. I recently lost 50lbs and still have more to go. My breasts went from 46DDD to 44C and are very saggy. What do you guys think about saggy breasts? I’m sure firm, perky breasts are preferred, but would you not date a girl or would you get turned off by a girl with saggy breasts?
As for my obesity, I have been working very hard to lose weight, but it’s coming off slowly (another symptom of PCOS is difficulty in losing weight). I was a size 26 jeans, but now am a size 16. I still weigh 200lb. It’s taken almost a year to get here, but I’m not stopping until I’m at least 150lb. At that point I’m going to reassess my goal and will continue to lose more if I feel I need to.
I hope I don’t sound too pathetic, but I’m sure I do. It’s just so discouraging seeing all these beautiful girls on magazine covers and in movies, etc. Knowing that I’ll never have such beauty is painful, but I truly want to experience love at some point in my life. I just don’t know if I’m fighting a losing battle.