It's 1am here in the uk and I'm struggling to sleep after experiencing something I guess none of us should ever experience.
Things have been a bit ropey between me and the girlfriend. We have both come out of long term relationships and 3 weeks ago she moved into her own place. We live a little way apart, but only I drive as she doesn't have a car. We have been together 10 months I am 30 she is 25.
On Saturday night I stayed over and things were great, I took her to work the following morning as usual and things were normal. The Thursday prior we had an argument so I turned up with flowers and things were fine again, however I noticed she was frequently putting me down more, highlighting what I did wrong within our relationship.
I'm going in for a knee op next Tuesday and was hoping to spend the weekend with her, however she had made plans to go out with her mates on the sat night. She invited me along which I agreed and cancelled my plans to do so but told her I was a bit gutted that she didn't prioritise me on the weekend before my operation as afterwards it would be hard to see each other for a while as I can't drive and she dont have a car. Her response was basically she wanted to go out and she was going regardless of if I went or not.
Then on Tuesday she text me asking why I wasn't coming over, I had assumed it was going to be Wednesday (yesterday) and she basically said she had enough and didn't want to carry on with us. All over text. However Wednesday we text most of the day and it ended with her saying she wanted to see me to end things. She text me 3 times in the night asking to do it soon but I was asleep so doesn't reply til the morning where she told me she couldn't see me until Monday. I knew she had plans so wasn't overly surprised. We had a big row on the phone this morning with her saying I didn't take her out enough and it was my job as they guy to do so whereas I said it should be equal
So I decided to go to her flat tonight to try and reconcile things. Funny enough the week before she was upset that I didn't turn up randomly as it would be a nice surprise. I must stress that generally she is very loving, and any suggestion of us splitting up always upset her.
Anyway I showed up and the lights were off with no answer, but I was eqrly and assumed as she was out with her mates she wouldn't be back til late. So I waited an hour and retried only to see the living room light on. I thought of buzzing on the door but for whatever reason I went down the side of the building and looked through the window only to see her on the sofa with some guy on top of her. I banged on the window and walked round to the front and buzzed on the door. Not knowing who it was she answered in complete shock, I was in tears, asked how she could do that and she went back inside.
2 minutes later I get a call from her calling me a stalker and demanding I apologise for banging on her window and scaring her. We talked/argued for 10 minutes with me a complete mess to be honest. I then drove home and 4 hours later I'm still laying here.
She text me an hour after I left saying 'let me talk to you tomorrow'. To which I didn't reply.
I was totally in love with this girl, and I'm not just that now. But Sunday morning we woke up together and she told me she loved me, she was always telling me how much she loved me.
I have no idea how I get over tonight. What I saw makes me sick and I can't sleep. What hurts most is I've come home in this state whilst she goes off with him tonight. How can someone do that? She saw and heard how much it upset me, as any normal person would that saw that, 4 days after I had stayed over as usual.
I'm in pieces